I bought some hormone-free, organic red meat from the grocer the other day. I rarely eat red meat, but sometimes, it good to ingest for grounding. BUT, I did notice when I ate it, yes, I felt more grounded, but I also felt a great deal of FEAR. And I wondered…being an animal empath, is that what affected me or was it something else? Today’s poll is about RED MEAT and being sensitive.
Category: being sensitive
Friday Excerpt & Poll
I missed Thursday Poll! Oh my! And they are so much fun. So here’s the Thursday Poll.
And for your excerpt of Fairy Online School, a lovely testimonial from Dar Payment:
“I really enjoyed Ronni’s Animal Mediumship class. I found that the lessons were not only fun, but also refreshingly progressive, starting first with the basic foundations for animal mediumship and then moving up in complexity. Each lesson was interesting and rich with tips and information on how to communicate with our beloved pets who have passed on. I also really enjoyed how each lesson amazingly prepared me for the next; and the exercises Ronni shared blew me away! What I found particularly unique about this class is that Ronni was easy to access if I had any questions, comments, or experiences that I wanted to share. I loved the personal touch! I highly recommend this class!” ~ Reverend Dar P., Lake Elsinore, CA
Thanks Dar!
Empaths: Be Conscious What You Take In
I’m mad at my english muffins…
I’ve been eating Thomas English Muffins (sourdough) all week long. I remember they used to be real crunchy and the butter would sit in the little crannies. They taste more chewy. On further investigation, I noticed a few new ingredients on the package including: autolyzed protein. Crap, this is MSG. Guess what? I get headaches from MSG which would explain the throbbing I’ve had all week long. A little can get by, but a whole week of it, not so much. I found a cool website that explains ingredients which helps. I’m pissed at Thomas. Why did you put something nasty into a food I trusted?
I need to be more aware
I’m now looking at what I take in, on every level.
This morning I checked my email and settled in to peruse a little Facebook and this is what went in:
- Two teenage football players arrested for raping a girl who was unconscious at a party. That’s awful.
- A photo of a dog, hair matted with dirt, and half his body in a large garbage bag. He was found on the highway stuffed into this bag. I feel sick and I didn’t even have breakfast. My heart is breaking looking at that poor baby. I’m beginning to hate people.
- Several people died today according to the folks left behind on Facebook, including a beloved cat. So much sadness.
- The upcoming trailer for an Amityville Horror movie and The Springbreakers which looks like pure darkness. The sweet little girls from all those singing high school movies and Nickelodeon are running around in bikinis having wild sex, robbing banks, and disillusioning young girls under thirteen everywhere. Great career moves, girls!
I feel dark now, and it registers as crankiness, anger, and a hopelessness. If I had wanted to take in garbage I would have eaten at McDonald’s down the street. This is not my stuff!
This stuff was in my feed, on the Yahoo page, everywhere. I wish I wasn’t so affected by all of it and it could just bounce off of me, but as a sensitive, I don’t have this luxury. It’s now my responsibility to monitor what I feed myself with. All that stuff can entertain others, but not for me.
To counteract that junk, I’m going to watch some episodes of the Jimmy Fallon show and laugh, and then go fill up with Nature.
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From the EMPATH SKILLS class
What I learned from movies…
and for something fun…What I Learned from the Movies…
I’m a big movie fan and from watching lots of movies I’ve learned a great deal. There does seem to be distinct differences between the movie world and ours.
- If you are being chased by a homicidal maniac, do not trip and fall. If you do fall, do not just lie there and shake, get the %$# up and run away even faster.
- If you ever hear scary music playing in the background, know that something bad is going to happen or someone who is evil or the “bad guy” just entered your picture. (Wouldn’t that be amazingly great if we were warned like that?)
- Everything that is playing out in your life right now is like one big story. Look at the connections and the symbolism/metaphors to figure out what’s really going on.
- Some folks are really just catalysts or bit players in your life, even plot devices, to create big action that creates big change in the end.
- We can ask for happy endings or at least work towards them.
- Some folks are just here to play the villains this time around. Be free to say BOOOOOO when they are around.
- Popcorn really does make the stories in your life look more interesting. At least it tastes really good.
- Your life might start out sad and upsetting, have lots of trauma and crisis in the middle, but in the end it all makes sense in some way (or at least makes a good movie).
- In movie world, everyone is more productive. Unfortunately, in real life everyone has to stop and take a pee or needs to eat a few times a day. I can’t imagine Harrison Ford stopping in the middle of being chased by an enormous ball to ask where the nearest bathroom is, and in some movies, you wonder if the main character ever eats at all.
- And in that movie world, everyone can go to sleep and wake up with their makeup on. I find this fascinating because the times I did this, I rashed out and looked quite wonky in the morning.
There you have it. Movies are very helpful in giving us a better perspective of our lives, and provide at the very least, a gratefulness that we can eat real food.
image: Dreamstime.com
What is mercury retrograde?!
We’ve heard a lot about Mercury Retrograde lately and when the planets are in this situation not to plan, etc. I was super curious. What is this? Does it really affect people? As empaths, how would it affect us?
Ironically, as I was planning to write this post, fellow colleague Natalia Kuna, just posted this great blog post defining what Mercury Retrograde was! You can read the post here.
I did some more digging.
Over at Astrology Zone Mercury Retrograde sounds like a time of chaos, but the positive affects are really big psychological breakthroughs.
My friend Jennifer over at FemCentral gives us another aspect of this time and explains that “When you experience problems during a retrograde, it is not the retrograde CAUSING the problems. It’s just that retrogrades brings submerged problems to the surface, so you can catch and fix them before they turn into something worse.”* She also suggests to look at the planet the retrograde is in. Catch that post over here. Sounds like introspective Pisces is where Mercury is hanging out.
Empathically, to me, this period feels very wide open emotionally. It feels less like chaos to me lately, thank goodness, but there has been much more profound insights when I sit down and listen. I am feeling more raw and vulnerable and I am picking up a great deal more sponge-wise then I usually do, so maybe Retrograde is a great time to work on strengthening those boundary walls. (I’ve noticed, also, everyone seems more reactive.)
And techie problems? Come to think of it, yesterday I tried three times to upload my new little film and when it finally did make its appearance on my site, it was all skippy in places.
How are you feeling?
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*from post “What’s Really Going On When a Planet Goes Retrograde,” (August 5, 2011, Jennifer L. Shelton, Femcentral)
Leotards vs. Tutus: rebuilding me
Leotards vs. Tutus: rebuilding me
I recently took a ballet class. Now it’s been years since I’ve been near a ballet bar. Dancing was one of my first loves growing up. I have fond memories of my Mom driving my sister and I to the Robin Hood School of Dance from the age of five way into the self-conscious teenage time of existence.
Listening to the melodic piano music for the first time the other day, I almost burst into tears but I held them back. My body wanted to move and stretch and my legs remembered how to point and hold long balance positions. And it hurt, a lot, because I was out of practice, but it felt good at the same time. And on my way out, I caught a quick look at the mirror and I felt years of disordered-thinking flood back to me, and I was knocked out of my perfect balance hold.
School has a dress code so I reluctantly ordered two standard issue black leotards and I grumbled and thought again about the reflection I caught of my hips that had spread out from sitting on my butt for months and eating on the go working to earn my Graduate certification. I was eye to eye with that teenage me.
I was a good dancer then which gave me pride. But I did not have a dancer’s body by a long shot. I am tiny and curvy not long and lean. And what was curves felt like fat then. My dance teacher did something stupid. He actually had a talk with my mom telling her to “work on my weight.” Ugh. What ensued after that was a lot of eating disorder thinking–I took it as a challenge to see how thin and tiny I could get. Luckily, a wiser part of me finally intervened and I was able to stop the madness. Many girls are not so lucky.
That’s what flooded into my face when I saw that dance mirror, and the anger came out at those f$#^ing leotards. The next dance class I slept through it. Inner teen was pissed and rebelling and making itself loudly known. You see, I’m a 40-something woman now, and I like my curves and my juicy pieces. I like being “woman-like.” I saw a photo of me taken a few years back when my life sucked and fell apart and my face was gaunt, and I remember then, I couldn’t get thin enough for my taste. When that line of thinking shows up it’s not health, it’s moving away from me.
And with this experience, I realize I am rebuilding my relationship to myself. The mirror-critic chatter in my head started in those crucial years in that leotard. I was being taught from that dance teacher how to compare, contrast, and rip apart. This was education aimed the wrong way. How many of us have had this training in the classroom, at home, in the school playground? Who does it serve? The dance teacher? I was taught to incorporate a running stream of dialogue in my head that needs to be overhauled and reprogrammed to “woman-like.”
I’m sending the leotards back and ordering a tutu. My inner teen wants one. Not to hide behind, but because Tutus fit around your hips and celebrate them.
photo credit: State Library of New South Wales collection
Happy Holidays!
An Empath’s Perspective on 2012
I just checked out this video made on the messages of 2012. There was a big conference in Sedona recently I missed because I didn’t have patience for. Watching this video gave me some big realizations. I trusted my empath radar as I watched.
What was disappointing is some of the leaders I previously liked I wasn’t resonating with their messages and I’ll tell you why.
I want to feel EXPANSIVE, and the opposite of boxed in. I want to feel HOPEFUL.
I don’t know about you but whatever is going on in my life, I want to feel EXPANSIVE, and the opposite of boxed in. I want to feel HOPEFUL. I don’t want feel powerless victim, ever. When I am in that space, I shut down. As an empath, my greatest gift is trusting how I feel to guide me to my right radio dial of what is good for me and what is not so great for me. I listened to one speaker and it didn’t matter what words were being said, I felt like that awful feeling in my stomach and I felt hide under the bed fearful. His words didn’t ring true inside of me.
I listened to the Swami, who by the way, resonates more to upbeat, fairy energy — and I felt good! I love the idea of laughing and feeling empowered. Hello! Who the heck doesn’t? And I really didn’t resonate to the channeled messages which basically said all the things I all ready knew. Why would I think a dead person or spirit would be more wiser or connected to wisdom/the divine then all of the rest of us? Aren’t we all able to tap into that?
What I hope we are moving more into, new age terms aside which are starting to not resonate with me, is going more into our own guidance and sense of what works or resonates with ourselves. We’re becoming guru-less. I see that with every person who takes a class or buys my book. They are accepting themselves and finding their own answers. Woo Hoo! Isn’t that the goal?
You decide…watch the video and feel. Each spiritual teacher is talking from their own perspective and seeing through their own lens on life. And who you resonate with or hear simply matches how you see things.
The darkness is not getting darker…
I had to get off Facebook for awhile…
After the tragedy of the elementary school shooting, I couldn’t even bear to feel. But it was the nonsense that followed that I couldn’t let into my system anymore.
I’m going through a disillusionment period, which I think most of us are. Spiritual leaders I used to admire I am looking at with a new eye. Everyone is fighting over politics, issues and now gun control. Many of my own buttons and wounds were pushed because I do understand very much how someone can come into your life with untreated mental illness and destroy everything, so I am sure, I am feeling that backlash. And all the 2012 channelings and spiritual teachers talking of how on the 21st it will be a new dawn and we will be enlightened, etc., started to really piss me off with its lack of real information. It felt like it was all pulling back the curtains and revealing the wizard pulling a bunch of strings.
Is the darkness getting darker and fighting because we are bringing in so much light? Ask anyone who has been through trauma in their life and they will tell you they’ve seen darkness and it’s been around a long, long time. 9/11 happened quite a long time ago and destroyed many people’s lives. When I really thought about it, I saw a clearer picture. What if instead, many of us are waking up? That means we are getting it, seeing it, and instead mindlessly accepting all this madness we are speaking up and speaking out. And we were the silent few, so lots of folks want us to be silent again.
One of my favorite movies is Pleasantville. It’s about a fictional television town that is exposed to real people and starts to wake up. They are all in black and white and they become “in color.” That’s us. There’s always been corrupt politicians, democrat vs. republican fighting, traditional vs. non-traditional thinking and values, and evil vs. good. It’s the yin and the yang. If we wanted all good we would have stayed with God in heaven where it was all flowers and light and endless cupcakes. We miss that terribly. But we agreed to come down here to earth to experience that dichotomy. Call it the ego or the personality, but it’s a big part of being human and we need to accept that. When you are in a body it comes with the territory. It goes along with having to pee and eat. We wanted to learn and boy, are we ever. Probably a little more than we intended, so we are feeling rather uncomfortable.
So, no, the darkness isn’t getting darker, we’re just exposing it and bringing it out from under the table. We’re talking about it. We’re trying to heal it. We’re trying to bring in more balance. I like the idea that bringing in more light is about bringing in more knowledge and awareness. We’re being educated. And the spiritual leaders? They are trying to define it: like the rest of us, most are just trying to find an explanation for the madness and for things that don’t make any sense at all in this crazy earth plane.
*And empaths, limit your news exposure. You don’t need to tune in and carry the pain of the families in the tragedy. It’s too much for even one person to bear.
*Check out the book WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE by Harold Kushner
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