1. Deep cleansing, leads to
2. Lack of sleep and nightmares, leads to
3. Lack of focus and cloudy head
4. Sets off irritability and over-sensitivity to all negativity
5. Sets off feeling of overwhelm and upset
6. Leads to buttons being pushed big time
7. Leads to off center, off focus, off path
and finally, triggered–“Aren’t I doing enough?!” People-pleasing. “How can I succeed this way?” Headaches. Pushing it all out.
Deep breath.
Re-center.
The energies are pretty wacky right now. I wake up in the middle of the night many times after deep processing and heavy emotion dreams. My head has been aching and there’s been a ton of downloads of energy. My friends are mirroring the same thing. Most are going through the remains of big issues they have held onto for a great while. Now is the time. It is as if we all decided we would do this work to finally rid ourselves.
I am still learning duck energy, and it is still hard to remain neutral with my daughter who is unknowingly pushing all my sister childhood issues right now. But, I always notice, stuff comes up when you are ready to heal and clear. When the issues are on the surface they are ready to go.
On the good note, I am so enjoying my students right now, and I am preparing to teach a college art course of more students. I am also finding that when I have clarity things flow to me. It’s the getting to that clarity that can be a little daunting.
Must go, Emma Lou is eating something she shouldn’t, again.
I keep seeing “555” on the clock. Angel message: Lots of changes headed my way. I’m in the midst of a lull right now. I am naturally impatient, fast energy-kind-of-person, so this January quiet is a little disheartening. I must be careful not to allow this to trigger my fears and go backwards. Always think forward.
I am realizing that I focus on everyone else’s problems to avoid addressing my own. Yesterday after listening to several people I love tell their dilemmas or problems, I stepped outside myself for a moment. Do I always do this? Want to fix it? Make it all better? Can I just listen? For eight years people have come to me with questions and that is what I do–try to help. Try to find answers. I love doing this, but do I need to do this all the time? When I listen to others’ stories I immediately want to jump in. I get too involved. My guidance asked me, what do you want? And I just felt the quiet, the lull. But under the lull, I heard a tiny voice say, What if what I want doesn’t matter?
Empathically it feels like the energies are still, calm, quiet. Perhaps this is desperately needed after experiencing such strong energies in the last few months that have done a number on most of us! I’ve been having many dreams in the astral of choosing and picking what I want, often in the subject of shopping! I think we are preparing for what is next and we have a choice what that will entail. My Guides tell me to take the time out to decide which direction to go in, and always, the message is to go where there is the most energy for you. I find lately, when I pursue my “head” ideas only, I am bored, lifeless and even annoyed. Yet, the heart ideas peek through–experimenting and playing with color, writing, making books, playing. Those are the ideas I need to follow. I am very impatient by nature, so of course, I want to know what is next RIGHT NOW. It feels like the energies will pick up by the end of the month, going into February. Lots of forward movement and excitement. Right now there’s the lull–the preparing.
The essence of choice right now? Yucca for focus and for following your purpose or path.
Ah, finally I am learning what Duck Energy is. For the empath, duck energy is essential–the key to sanity. Duck energy represents detaching from others’ stuff; observing without carrying. I feel as if I’ve been in a fish bowl experiment lately with my newly-teen daughter home from school for two weeks. Girls at this age are reactive at best. I told my husband, it is like she has PMS 24/7, which can’t be the easiest thing to have. My immediate response to anger is anger, so using duck energy has been my tool. Perhaps she is simply bringing up my control issues.
When I watch her do absolutely nothing a few days straight, I want to step in and offer suggestions, help, anything. But I finally learned this act did nothing but aggravate her more. Let it go, I kept hearing. But as a parent, isn’t it our jobs to make sure our girls grow up to be happy, well-adjusted adults? Let it go. Where’s her passion? Her joy? Her excitement? Let it go. Just swim along in the sea and don’t get lost in others’ floods. They are swimming along too, the best they can. You can’t go to school for someone else, can you? Let it go.
The January newsletter of my site’s Dogbunny Gazette is now up. Find it here.
I’ve been getting the same message from my Guides, Don’t Act Small. Many of us are receiving this message–to embrace our bigger selves. We are all huge spirits and souls! There are so many ways to act smaller than we are. This message really rang clear recently.
Yesterday was our New Year’s celebration for the Prescott Healing Arts Association. Two lovely members were to lead the group with a guided journey and a labyrinth to walk. I was guided to introduce two essences to the group and talked with our president about this and we agreed that I would start the meeting by passing around the two essences. She felt that since I was guided to present the essences, someone who would come to the celebration needed them. Long story short, after we added another presenter, the presenters had a meeting and decided I was demoted to the greeting desk instead because there wouldn’t be enough time for my presentation. The experience of being left out and slighted greatly upset me. As I pondered what happened I heard “don’t play small!” The message was in my face! Perhaps I had underappreciated my gifts and what I had to offer the group.
I am finding that lately I’ve needed my lessons in my face to “get” them! After much deliberation and talk with the president, we went back to our original plan, and I presented the essences to the group in the circle. Later, I had many folks who came up to me thanking me for the particular essence they took. (I brought Zinnia for fairy joy, and Mexican Poppy for restoring your power center). Indeed, I was meant to bring those essences that day and my message or purpose was just as important as everyone else who was there.
I am happy to say I had a beagle spirit visit the other day and today! I had a very lucid dream about Lilibeth. I could feel her fur, etc. As I woke up I distinctly felt her energy and it felt WONDERFUL. I remember thinking that my neck hurt. I heard a voice say, “Oh, you can heal that.” So typical Lils, who had been teaching me how to heal and told me before she crossed the rainbow bridge that it was time for me to step into my power as a healer. She said the words so simply, which gave me such great confidence. Very nice.
I also thought the other day about relatives we love who have very different views on politics, religion and even global warming! I am thinking that everything is based on experiences. I believe wholeheartedly in the after-life only because of my experiences I’ve had tell me that is the truth. I can’t deny it after so many experiences that can be documented in so many forms. But I could never expect someone else to believe if they have never ever been touched by death or have had no experiences of the psychic or sensitive nature. They may not be wired that way. It’s not wrong or right, only very different experiences. We believe what we experience and what we are meant to experience. Perhaps in my role as a teacher I needed to experience these things to teach this particular area.
I am starting a new column within my blog: flower essence and Nature tools for support. I have learned from my Guides (Fairy and otherwise) great, natural tools to support my sensitive system.
Today’s focus is Salvia Potion. This lovely purple plant grows in the fields and in many of my neighbor’s lawns in Arizona. It is tall with bunches of tiny purple flowers. Salvia is emotionally calming, great for this kooky & sometimes dramatic holiday season. This essence is also good for detaching from others’ emotional dramas, and of course, our own. I’ve taken this essence in the middle of an emotional melt-down, PMS, and in trauma.
How’s it feel? I feel calm, and the emotional edge has been taken off. I am also in a more balanced place so I can detach easier, and see the higher picture.
Order at our store. (Our beginner class-flower essence introduction– in Fairy School is also being offered this January.)
I have been noticing that my manifesting has sped up. Where in the past, there were blocks in the way (apparently) and when I asked for certain things, those things would be long time coming. Is it possible by having such a big clearing and healing, and releasing so much I have removed blocks in that area? I am so happy! It has been as simple as thinking I needed something, perhaps money for a certain bill, and then I’d be surprised how it suddenly emerged. Before it had felt like I was working with quicksand. Has anyone else experienced this shift?
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