Author: designingfairy

I'm Ronni, a designing fairy living among the humans! I'm a writer, illustrator, designer, and animal communicator/medium who loves to share and teach what I've learned in a fun way, whether it's providing tools in my Help! I'm Sensitive series for the sensitive folk, Healing Fairy Alphabet Deck for connecting to your intuition through Nature, the Idea Emporium for thinking like a designer to get out of boxes, or teaching in a classroom lessons I created, I hope my creations help make life more fun and easier. I like to help my fellow sensitives!
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Nasty fairy moment

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I’m experiencing a nasty fairy moment. It could be the half a garlic bread I just scarfed down, or that I overslept this morning and had an amazing dream and had to wake up, or maybe just hormones. Nasty fairy moments are when I am not all positive, happy, and spiritual. Sometimes, they can feel good. After all, that is a lot of pressure to always be positive, happy and spiritual, right? Maybe I need nasty fairy moments.

Nasty fairy moments often include nasty feelings like envy, hostility, negativity, and just plain bitchiness. There’s often a high degree of self pity thrown in there. I’ll say things to myself like, “No one cares.” “Why try, it won’t make a difference.” “I’ve failed before.” These even feel prickly and icky.

I hate the thoughts the most and some can be quite cutting ones that surprise me. I would guess that although I’m mostly fairy, I am in a human body. 🙂

Way, way back, I had a design client from hell. No, really. As soon as she approached me, I had a bad feeling. I knew we’d have control battles when we fought over where we should meet. When I visited her home, she was highly specific about how close to the curb I should park. Needless to say, I did NOT follow my inner guidance at the time. In a very nasty confrontation, she told me I was not who I portrayed myself to be. I was a nasty fairy! And that’s when I discovered that part of me.

I look back at this moment, and now I chuckle. I am by far not lighthearted all the time, like you would think fairies would be. I have Scorpio in my Moon, so I am rather serious and intense in my emotions. I live life down into the layers. I have to work at the lighthearted thing. (Ironically, though, it must be in there, because most of my artwork is rather fun and whimsical.). So I always thought it funny that the Fairies had found me. But then, I look at my work with Nature like a little scientist diving in and trying to understand and learn, and mostly, discover. I would imagine, the Fairies aren’t always lighthearted all the time themselves. And I would guess, there are quite a few who are nasty little fairies at times.

(Of note, I was recently told I was the epitomy of joy. Okay, okay, my true soul is probably rather silly and maybe even joyful. I do have to admit.)

empaths · Flower essences for sensitive · healing · spiritual lessons

In the garden diary

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How I found my Fairy Castle…
My life, as I knew it, fell apart at the foundation five months ago. I won’t go into the details, but most of the trauma involved adopting an older child with problems we were not prepared for or trained to handle as she aged and a lot of other really traumatic stuff and big time breakdowns. I had asked my Guides and Helpers to help me find a place I’d feel safe and comfortable where I could heal, as well as, for my animals. I knew only what I wanted to feel in this new home and some of the attributes. When I did fall onto this place, through a series of steps, it wasn’t at all what I expected! I’m a Jersey princess by heart, and the place was a cute, long, mobile. It was in a rather rural area when I had said I wanted more city. But when I saw the yard, my heart opened to a width it hadn’t had been at in a long while. It was clearly love at first sight. And now, fairly situated into our new home, I have to say I love it with all its lovely quirkiness. So, the message is to be open to what you want however it comes, seek out the attributes and feelings of what you want and trust, trust, trust. I am grateful for this gift from the Fairies. (Thanks to Shaeri and Jerry, of course!) To read more go to the diary.

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IF:Detective

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This is rather an untraditional illustration, more of a drawing, but I haven’t participated in IF for so long, I wanted to. I’ve been acting as detective lately to follow my new interests and passions and see where they tak me. Here’s my “Food” that nourishes me.

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Be sure to visit my new website: http://www.fairyonlineschool.com

Animal Communication · Animals · Intuition · psychic tips · spiritual lessons

Animals mirroring us

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Do our animals take on our stuff? Do they mirror us? Or, do they just have similar issues? Or, are they affected by stress, or genetics? We discussed this in the most recent class I taught at Yavapai Community College. My answer is that everything is not cut and dry. All these questions are true. Different times and circumstances we may find different answers.

Recently, in one situation, I found that the answer was that our animals mirror and hold our energies. Sarah, my lovely, older beagle mix, had a bladder infection. This was during a time I was particularly pissed off at the world and everything. I hadn’t even noticed at the time I was instinctually downing glass after glass of cranberry juice. In hindsight, I wish I had given some to Sarah.

We moved to our new place and Sarah’s bladder infection, with my anger, dissipated and began to heal. She was doing great and so was I. But through a series of events, my balance got thrown right off. Sure enough, Sarah had an ear infection that threw her into vertigo! Later we would find at the vet’s office, she had a foxtail deep in her ear that had to be removed. What I heard intuitively was something that was there, and shouldn’t have been, was ready to come out and was dislodged causing problems. Ironically, when the foxtail was discovered, I spent those days emotionally “processing” alot of old stuff that needed to go. 

I finally got it, the lesson, through my loyal, dog friend. I looked at her and said, “Sarah, let’s get our balance back. You don’t need to take this on.”

After lots of talks with my helpers and friends, a ton of writing about whatever spilled out, I felt my balance return and my clarity. Sure enough, Sarah’s visit to the vet revealed a clear and healthy ear. Coincidence? We know better.

Can talking to your animal end the mirroring and carrying? As an over-responsible empath, I can say that it has been a challenge for me to learn that “carrying is not caring.” Perhaps, Sarah is learning the same, and no amount of conversations will simply stop the pattern until she gets it, or perhaps, I get it.

Misc. Psychic

New site

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Stay tuned for my new website, Fairy Online School. There will fairy goddess gowns, fairy research, fairy classes and fun for those who love fairies and animals. I will be posting the info here on my blog!

dogs art · new thinking · pen and ink drawings · whimsical illustration

Gratefulness

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Today I am just grateful…

…for all the loving support

…for prayers answered

…for my dogs I cuddle at night

…for dear friends

…for feeling safe

…for my fairy castle and yard

…for guidance

…fror the ability to help others and the gifts to help others

…and for the neighborhood rooster and crows who wake me up in the morning, because I’d probably sleep until 10.

Misc. Psychic

Busy, busy

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I’ve been busy on creating the new website, buying the domain, planning and more planning. And, readings have started again (see Readings page for details and info). There is much to plan in the new garden, which I am so excited about.

The Fairies have been very busy also–bothering me! I sat down in meditation the other day just to get some guidance and big mistake, called on the Fairies of this house and yard. Next thing you know, I had a long list of things I needed to plant. The ironic thing is, I am so into plants, but no knowledge of what I am doing! I’ve been known to kill houseplants. Luckily, my friend Jan Marie is coming by today to lend some advice. She gets guidance as well, and is my major source of Fairy and Native American info.  I’ m sure the Fairies will be bossing her around also!

Went to a lovely Pipe Ceremony last night, and the week before, a Seance. Both times animals that have crossed over had messages to be heard and were very persistant and pushy to have themselves be known. I’m not sure about this trend but I have been asking for direction lately and what my general purpose was. Hmmm. Makes you wonder.

Lots of baby steps forward. One foot in front of the other.

Misc. Psychic

Flippy Floppy Website

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A little announcement–my website has been on-again off-again. My hosting is all screwed up right now and I’ve been trying to square it away the past few months. I’ve been playing with the idea of making a new one with new domain for the Fairy Online School, but waiting to hear guidance on that. So, in the meantime, I’ll be hanging around here and you can reach me on this blog.

I am doing some readings again–slowly being pulled back in. Contact me through this blog. See readings page.

Lots of wild realizations, abilities increasing, and change over here.

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An Empath Goes To The Movies

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Anyone who knows me knows that I love movies. I dig the story. One of my guilty pleasures has been joining Netflix. So, for my new blog feature, I rate the movies for sensitivity level and appeal. Here’s my reviews from a Sensitive’s point of view of the latest movies I watched:

  1. Coco Before Chanel

I didn’t dig this movie. I love clothes and fashion, but this one dragged on and on. And I usually love Audrey Tatou of Amelie fame, but she frowned a great deal and brooded through most of the 2 hours, which contrasted with her Amelie portrait of optimism. When the writers introduce the car, you already know what is coming.

Sensitive rating: 7 for too much emotional angst that an empath may walk away feeling.

2. UP

What a fun and upbeat, feel good movie. For dog lovers, you will love the “talking” dogs. The writers must be dog parents because they “get” their unique point of view. I like the message carried throughout the movie of finding family however it comes and the take on aging with truly living.

Sensitive rating: 2 for a little sadness in the beginning. (The beginning really hit a nerve with me.) Possible animal cruelty but the animals are protected and saved in the long run so safe to watch.

And 3. Big sensitivity warning this week.

Don’t watch A Haunting: the series.

Sensitive rating: 10 I actually had the worst migraine watching this show recently. Like most of us, much of my sensitivity has increased. The slightest  negativity wreaks havoc on my system. Reactments of actual hauntings, much that are negative and highly violent, are the fare for this show. I did not know this going in. When the Warrens come in and proclaim every haunting is a demon, a part of me check outs. Stay away Sensitives.

Until next time…

For help with your sensitivity, see my Psychic tips, or sign up for the Care of the Sensitive class on the Online Classes page. You can also sign up for a reading.  I am also working hard on a new Ebook to help you.

empaths · sensitivity · spiritual lessons · whimsical illustration

Empaths carry too much

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Everyone I know is going through major stuff.

It’s like we all decided that now is the time to really deal with the big issues of our lives, and get rid of major karma–major hindrances–so we can finally be free. Unfortunately, this doesn’t always look or feel pretty. I joke lately how what I’ve gone through in the the past six months equaled the combined experiences of the dentist’s root canal, a pap smear and having to give a speech in grade school class totally unprepared. As hard as it has been, on the positive side, I am also clearing out major beliefs that I held onto for years.

What I’ve discovered…

Have you ever stopped and realized how much of our stuff isn’t our stuff at all? As sensitive folk, this is much the case. We carry so much for others without realizing it. In my work on healing, I’ve seen so much I’ve picked up and internalized from my loved ones, and even beliefs or issues that were my parents from long ago. Perhaps as sensitive little empaths, we sponged all that wasn’t said or acknowledged, and in our desire to help, we took it on.

How much of us believe the following:

  • Parents should sacrifice themselves completely for their children.
  • We are only as worthy as the amount we give to others.
  • Carrying for others is caring.
  • What we do and accomplish = our worth.
  • Who you are is either bad or good as judged by your behaviors.

It’s amazing how much these beliefs can block us. I found that out.

And now, it’s like I am having a huge identity crisis. Who am I without the old life and these beliefs that shaped my world? I guess I will soon find out.

(character: the scientist)