Year: 2010

empaths · healing · Psychic Room · psychic tips · sensitivity · spiritual lessons · writing

5 Steps to Reawaken Your Inner Fairy

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Steps to Reawaken Your Authentic Inner Fairy Self:

STEP ONE: Reintroduce the Fairies into your life and learn how to heal with your own backyard.
FB101 Fairy Beginner & Flower Essence Class
F101 Fairies 101 Introduction Class
COM101 Animal & Fairy Communication

STEP TWO: Connect even deeper with your animals.
(Fairies have a deep connection to animals.)
COM102 Animal Communication
HA101 Animal Healing with Nature & Fairies
AM101 Animal Mediumship: After Death Communication

STEP THREE: Take care of your developing sensitive self.
(You may be an empath already and need tools, or by doing this work you find you are becoming more sensitive.)
CS101 Care of the Sensitive
RT101 Healing with Rocks & Trees

STEP FOUR: Bring back joy into your life and rediscover you, your authentic inner fairy.
FJ200 Fairy Joy class

STEP FIVE: (COMING): Go deeper: become a fairy detective.

Sign up for Fairy Online School classes at the Online Class page.

empaths · spiritual lessons

Do you teach others to treat you like crap?

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I’m in a writing mood, so I will blog write beside posting art.

I’ve been learning major stuff lately. Tower experiences do that. We tend to have life reviews then we see a timeline of false beliefs that led us to experience what we do not want to experience. I think that is the true gift in major life break-ups.

What did I learn? For one thing, we must not compromise so much of ourselves. Each little compromise tells us we don’t matter and are unimportant. And slowly, we expect less and less. Next thing we see is we matter little in our lives. We are disrespected. It’s a snowball effect.

I look back and I see how all this was born when I was quite little. A belief was planted. And yes, Empaths, we do tend to take on others’ beliefs as our own and others’ stuff at a very early age.

I have seen times I gave 110% in my biz, my family, in parenting, relationships, and then was genuinely surprised when I was empty-handed. I foolishly thought that when I needed it, like financial help for my dying dog, or needing money for simple things like gas or electric, it would be there, because look how much I gave! I think all it created was resentment. Why was this happening? Because I gave free readings, free info, free classes. I was such a good old girl. Helpers, when has anyone asked a dentist or electrician for free help? I saw this recently when a woman wanted a basically cheap reading for me to travel an hour and a half and talk to most of her kennel. Then balked at my average price. She had just paid a vet to come to the house big bucks! So, the message again, you are unimportant, not worthy. That was part of my wake-up call. The last few years have brought me the best teachers in the world for this lesson, including a child who was a Master Teacher.

Little by little we put up with small compromises that do not honor us and whittle us away. Maybe this is a learned woman thing. I don’t know. But it’s too late. I see it now. I have this beautiful opportunity to rewrite my history and heal my inner little girl. How frickin’ cool is that?

doodles drawings · healing · manifesting · new thinking · pen and ink drawings · whimsical illustration

Daily Bliss

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I am taking Sheri Gaynor’s online Creative Awakenings 30 Day Expedition. One part of that is to participate in 30 days of daily bliss. Being an artist, I thought I’d take advantage of this opportunity to draw out my bliss. Here’s the first few days:

After participating in one day of bliss-making, I experienced a fun cosmic joke. On the highway I found myself following a truck. The back said “Bliss.” I had to laugh out loud when my thick brain grabbed the message “I was following my bliss.” Ha ha! Well, we will see. One day at a time to a new Ronni.

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Nasty fairy moment

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I’m experiencing a nasty fairy moment. It could be the half a garlic bread I just scarfed down, or that I overslept this morning and had an amazing dream and had to wake up, or maybe just hormones. Nasty fairy moments are when I am not all positive, happy, and spiritual. Sometimes, they can feel good. After all, that is a lot of pressure to always be positive, happy and spiritual, right? Maybe I need nasty fairy moments.

Nasty fairy moments often include nasty feelings like envy, hostility, negativity, and just plain bitchiness. There’s often a high degree of self pity thrown in there. I’ll say things to myself like, “No one cares.” “Why try, it won’t make a difference.” “I’ve failed before.” These even feel prickly and icky.

I hate the thoughts the most and some can be quite cutting ones that surprise me. I would guess that although I’m mostly fairy, I am in a human body. 🙂

Way, way back, I had a design client from hell. No, really. As soon as she approached me, I had a bad feeling. I knew we’d have control battles when we fought over where we should meet. When I visited her home, she was highly specific about how close to the curb I should park. Needless to say, I did NOT follow my inner guidance at the time. In a very nasty confrontation, she told me I was not who I portrayed myself to be. I was a nasty fairy! And that’s when I discovered that part of me.

I look back at this moment, and now I chuckle. I am by far not lighthearted all the time, like you would think fairies would be. I have Scorpio in my Moon, so I am rather serious and intense in my emotions. I live life down into the layers. I have to work at the lighthearted thing. (Ironically, though, it must be in there, because most of my artwork is rather fun and whimsical.). So I always thought it funny that the Fairies had found me. But then, I look at my work with Nature like a little scientist diving in and trying to understand and learn, and mostly, discover. I would imagine, the Fairies aren’t always lighthearted all the time themselves. And I would guess, there are quite a few who are nasty little fairies at times.

(Of note, I was recently told I was the epitomy of joy. Okay, okay, my true soul is probably rather silly and maybe even joyful. I do have to admit.)

empaths · Flower essences for sensitive · healing · spiritual lessons

In the garden diary

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How I found my Fairy Castle…
My life, as I knew it, fell apart at the foundation five months ago. I won’t go into the details, but most of the trauma involved adopting an older child with problems we were not prepared for or trained to handle as she aged and a lot of other really traumatic stuff and big time breakdowns. I had asked my Guides and Helpers to help me find a place I’d feel safe and comfortable where I could heal, as well as, for my animals. I knew only what I wanted to feel in this new home and some of the attributes. When I did fall onto this place, through a series of steps, it wasn’t at all what I expected! I’m a Jersey princess by heart, and the place was a cute, long, mobile. It was in a rather rural area when I had said I wanted more city. But when I saw the yard, my heart opened to a width it hadn’t had been at in a long while. It was clearly love at first sight. And now, fairly situated into our new home, I have to say I love it with all its lovely quirkiness. So, the message is to be open to what you want however it comes, seek out the attributes and feelings of what you want and trust, trust, trust. I am grateful for this gift from the Fairies. (Thanks to Shaeri and Jerry, of course!) To read more go to the diary.

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IF:Detective

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This is rather an untraditional illustration, more of a drawing, but I haven’t participated in IF for so long, I wanted to. I’ve been acting as detective lately to follow my new interests and passions and see where they tak me. Here’s my “Food” that nourishes me.

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Animal Communication · Animals · Intuition · psychic tips · spiritual lessons

Animals mirroring us

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Do our animals take on our stuff? Do they mirror us? Or, do they just have similar issues? Or, are they affected by stress, or genetics? We discussed this in the most recent class I taught at Yavapai Community College. My answer is that everything is not cut and dry. All these questions are true. Different times and circumstances we may find different answers.

Recently, in one situation, I found that the answer was that our animals mirror and hold our energies. Sarah, my lovely, older beagle mix, had a bladder infection. This was during a time I was particularly pissed off at the world and everything. I hadn’t even noticed at the time I was instinctually downing glass after glass of cranberry juice. In hindsight, I wish I had given some to Sarah.

We moved to our new place and Sarah’s bladder infection, with my anger, dissipated and began to heal. She was doing great and so was I. But through a series of events, my balance got thrown right off. Sure enough, Sarah had an ear infection that threw her into vertigo! Later we would find at the vet’s office, she had a foxtail deep in her ear that had to be removed. What I heard intuitively was something that was there, and shouldn’t have been, was ready to come out and was dislodged causing problems. Ironically, when the foxtail was discovered, I spent those days emotionally “processing” alot of old stuff that needed to go. 

I finally got it, the lesson, through my loyal, dog friend. I looked at her and said, “Sarah, let’s get our balance back. You don’t need to take this on.”

After lots of talks with my helpers and friends, a ton of writing about whatever spilled out, I felt my balance return and my clarity. Sure enough, Sarah’s visit to the vet revealed a clear and healthy ear. Coincidence? We know better.

Can talking to your animal end the mirroring and carrying? As an over-responsible empath, I can say that it has been a challenge for me to learn that “carrying is not caring.” Perhaps, Sarah is learning the same, and no amount of conversations will simply stop the pattern until she gets it, or perhaps, I get it.

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New site

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Stay tuned for my new website, Fairy Online School. There will fairy goddess gowns, fairy research, fairy classes and fun for those who love fairies and animals. I will be posting the info here on my blog!

dogs art · new thinking · pen and ink drawings · whimsical illustration

Gratefulness

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Today I am just grateful…

…for all the loving support

…for prayers answered

…for my dogs I cuddle at night

…for dear friends

…for feeling safe

…for my fairy castle and yard

…for guidance

…fror the ability to help others and the gifts to help others

…and for the neighborhood rooster and crows who wake me up in the morning, because I’d probably sleep until 10.

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Busy, busy

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I’ve been busy on creating the new website, buying the domain, planning and more planning. And, readings have started again (see Readings page for details and info). There is much to plan in the new garden, which I am so excited about.

The Fairies have been very busy also–bothering me! I sat down in meditation the other day just to get some guidance and big mistake, called on the Fairies of this house and yard. Next thing you know, I had a long list of things I needed to plant. The ironic thing is, I am so into plants, but no knowledge of what I am doing! I’ve been known to kill houseplants. Luckily, my friend Jan Marie is coming by today to lend some advice. She gets guidance as well, and is my major source of Fairy and Native American info.  I’ m sure the Fairies will be bossing her around also!

Went to a lovely Pipe Ceremony last night, and the week before, a Seance. Both times animals that have crossed over had messages to be heard and were very persistant and pushy to have themselves be known. I’m not sure about this trend but I have been asking for direction lately and what my general purpose was. Hmmm. Makes you wonder.

Lots of baby steps forward. One foot in front of the other.