I picked a card for the week and it’s a time of reflection and sorting. For info go HERE on my new site to read the post. I’ve been blogging over there in my new space about creative mentors and the whimsical weird, go head on over there and follow the blog as I spend more and more time over there creating.
The Cards are back!
This week’s reading is over here on its own site.
Take a look around while you are there and check out the Monthly creative classes.
I just finished a HUGE move from quiet to noisy, to alone to full, to hot to cold. As a sensitive, I keep adjusting and trying to remind myself to take it slow and have awareness my sensitive system is different then most. It is frustrating because I want to just zoom ahead, but my body is talking. Here is what I am learning — my Top 10.
How about you? What helps you in a big move or great transitions?
Until next time,
Fairy blessings, Dear Ones,
Healing Fairy Alphabet Deck cards weekly reading resumes after Labor Day and it will be over HERE.
“I am on my last class TAG101 to achieving my certification for Animal Communication!! I have loved all of the classes I have taken with Ronni and will continue to learn whatever she is teaching in the future!! The classes associated with Animal Communication ROCK! I have always thought I was empathic enough but now with all of her tricks of the trade revealed and new ideas I have resolved many issues with my departed loved fur babies that helped me feel less guilty about decisions I was trying to make regarding them and their last little bit of time with me here on Earth. It became very personal and hard to share but all in all just an amazing journey!! Thank you Ronni for giving us such an amazing platform to learn from and while your journey is moving in a new and fabulous way I will try to keep up with you and take in all the fun and fantastic things you are creating anew!! Fairy School is amazing and I will miss it, but as you have said on to new and more fun things (paraphrasing there)!! Thank you so much and many blessings along your way!!” — Jan Wilson, Northern Nevada
Many thank you’s to Jan and all the students of the Fairy and Empath Online School. Right now I am offering Mentoring Packages here and developing new creative classes and programs over here.
I am exploring an old pattern.
When I was a little fairy, my loving Mom instilled in me to not be “selfish.” These lessons included putting others’ needs first, thinking about others’ feelings (hard not to when you are a raging empath), and watch to make sure you weren’t totally self-involved. We are raised by religion to always be of service and help others. I think I took it too far.
My old pattern manifests itself as whiny “what about me?!” It isn’t pretty. It can be more quiet where I just whine and feel pity on myself acting like the girl who didn’t get asked to dance. Or it looks like ugly anger and resentment like, “Why isn’t anyone buying my stuff, dammit! Hello! What are you blind?” Or, those glorious slow seething blow-up moments where I want to pop barbie heads off and cry into my water when I find out only four people on Facebook Business page saw my post I labored on (thank you Facebook for limiting my reach only if I pay you money).
I have had slow moments in the past year where I barely had money for food and yet I was giving out a ton. That’s truly a large red flag I ignored.
I guess it is the “selfish” that tells me I need to keep giving to get, which I guarantee creates one heck of an energetic imbalance, and a giant hole within all areas of my life. In those moments, I think that is the only formula I have, but even in marketing we are told we need to share, share, share. The current trend lately is to give out FREE seminars, FREE everything to get business. (Did we all grow up with the same messed up beliefs?)
The problem is I like to give. I love to nurture and share. I have so much creative energy it feels foreign not to do six creative projects at once and share all of it. But I need to recognize when I am giving too much out and not getting what I need. My fabulous loved one reminded me the other day that I needed to take time out to give to myself. How sad I forgot and needed that reminder. I need to learn how to watch that energy pendulum for myself or I won’t have anything left to give. Examples are flooding my mind. I have this image of a child playing too long in the Arizona sun without enough water and falling over because he forgot to drink. Or my cell phone draining of energy and I can’t use it because it needs to be recharged into the wall. Do I yell at the kid he’s selfish or needy? How about the phone? He needs water to continue and the phone needs the charger. Why wouldn’t I have needs for my business or my personal time to keep going?
I guess it is a little like watching my milk intake and being vocally clear what I need. I have no problem with that one. I can tell a waiter, “No cheese please.” I don’t make excuses or whine, or cry about how I don’t matter, I just order. I need to express those limits and healthy boundaries. I need to make limits on how much I can give.
I wonder why it is so hard for me to learn how to ask for what I need and expect I will get it. Why is it so much easier to just take care of others? But the funny thing is, and I will let you know a little secret, I am happiest when my needs are met (like duh). When I am a little selfish self-taking care of, it is kinda glorious. Having alone time in the forest, being able to write and make movies or design, makes me really, really happy. And when I am really, really happy, I am delightful to be around. I can give a lot and then I inspire those around me. The more I take care of me, the more I have to give. I am like my cell phone at full charge! And when I am neglected and not getting when I need, but still trying, and still giving out, I am, well, let’s admit it, a very cranky and whiny fairy. Yuck.
So there that overly-giving part of me! Do you hear all that?! It’s not selfish, it’s actually making me more helpful to others. It’s necessary! It’s how this thing should work.
Next time I feel empty, and I can’t pay bills, and I am giving and sharing, and I am invisible, and my needs matter the least, I will not whine and cry, it will be a clear sign I forgot to take care of myself. I will have to pry my tight, gripping hands from the sharing pattern for a moment. And a clear energetic symptom that I am on the right track will be I will feel lighter and freer and feel relief. I am lightening my load. I am back on track again.
What do you think? Have you had this experience too?
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Speaking of sharing, last session of Fairy and Empath Online classes start on Friday. I will be teaching creative classes over on my art site, but many classes here will be retired. Did you reserve your spaces? The catalog is here.
Over at my Healing Fairy Alphabet page, I am participating in the Mad Tea Party given each year by A Fanciful Twist. Her blogs are gorgeous and feasts for the eyes. You can see my new FAIRY movie over here. (Free worksheet too, and I added two new creative classes over there.)
Working on book 2 in the Help! I’m Sensitive series, Your Turtle Shell. This one is all about setting boundaries and includes Thoughts of a Sensitive. What topics and concerns as a sensitive would you like to see? Feel free to fill in the comment section below or email me if you prefer. I’d love to hear from you.
Wild Worlds Within Doodle and Writing Online Class is perfect for summer playing and for hearing your intuition. For details and to sign up for the class that starts tomorrow go here.
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