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555, lulls and trying to fix it all

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I keep seeing “555” on the clock. Angel message: Lots of changes headed my way. I’m in the midst of a lull right now. I am naturally impatient, fast energy-kind-of-person, so this January quiet is a little disheartening. I must be careful not to allow this to trigger my fears and go backwards. Always think forward.

I am realizing that I focus on everyone else’s problems to avoid addressing my own. Yesterday after listening to several people I love tell their dilemmas or problems, I stepped outside myself for a moment. Do I always do this? Want to fix it? Make it all better? Can I just listen? For eight years people have come to me with questions and that is what I do–try to help. Try to find answers. I love doing this, but do I need to do this all the time? When I listen to others’ stories I immediately want to jump in. I get too involved. My guidance asked me, what do you want? And I just felt the quiet, the lull. But under the lull, I heard a tiny voice say, What if what I want doesn’t matter?

Flower essences for sensitive · spiritual lessons

Don’t play small!

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I’ve been getting the same message from my Guides, Don’t Act Small. Many of us are receiving this message–to embrace our bigger selves. We are all huge spirits and souls! There are so many ways to act smaller than we are. This message really rang clear recently.

Yesterday was our New Year’s celebration for the Prescott Healing Arts Association. Two lovely members were to lead the group with a guided journey and a labyrinth to walk. I was guided to introduce two essences to the group and talked with our president about this and we agreed that I would start the meeting by passing around the two essences. She felt that since I was guided to present the essences, someone who would come to the celebration needed them. Long story short, after we added another presenter, the presenters had a meeting and decided I was demoted to the greeting desk instead because there wouldn’t be enough time for my presentation. The experience of being left out and slighted greatly upset me. As I pondered what happened I heard “don’t play small!” The message was in my face! Perhaps I had underappreciated my gifts and what I had to offer the group.

I am finding that lately I’ve needed my lessons in my face to “get” them! After much deliberation and talk with the president, we went back to our original plan, and I presented the essences to the group in the circle. Later, I had many folks who came up to me thanking me for the particular essence they took. (I brought Zinnia for fairy joy, and Mexican Poppy for restoring your power center). Indeed, I was meant to bring those essences that day and my message or purpose was just as important as everyone else who was there.

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It’s my Bday and Beagle visits

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I am happy to say I had a beagle spirit visit the other day and today! I had a very lucid dream about Lilibeth. I could feel her fur, etc. As I woke up I distinctly felt her energy and it felt WONDERFUL. I remember thinking that my neck hurt. I heard a voice say, “Oh, you can heal that.” So typical Lils, who had been teaching me how to heal and told me before she crossed the rainbow bridge that it was time for me to step into my power as a healer. She said the words so simply, which gave me such great confidence. Very nice.

I also thought the other day about relatives we love who have very different views on politics, religion and even global warming! I am thinking that everything is based on experiences. I believe wholeheartedly in the after-life only because of my experiences I’ve had tell me that is the truth. I can’t deny it after so many experiences that can be documented in so many forms. But I could never expect someone else to believe if they have never ever been touched by death or have had no experiences of the psychic or sensitive nature. They may not be wired that way. It’s not wrong or right, only very different experiences. We believe what we experience and what we are meant to experience. Perhaps in my role as a teacher I needed to experience these things to teach this particular area.

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I’m learning joy from a puppy

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After some very traumatic yet fascinating experiences–I am learning so much–my goal is to regain joy. Not always an easy thing to do when you’ve been bathed in fear and grief. But somewhere underneath the weeds is the flower!

Emma Lou, our reincarnated basset hound, represents joy to me. She can’t wait to wake up in the morning and play with her toy basket, knock over each toy, explore shoes, and chase her sister around. After being in pain for the past week, I, on the otherhand, have dreaded mornings, but Emma is teaching me otherwise. You would think her day would be boring, but she is the epitomy of simplicity. And it is the simple things that give her the most joy. She loves the sun on her belly, a piece of string gives her moments of fun (I’d say hours but we are talking puppy here), and whenever she sees one of her sisters, she eggs them on to play. We had this “skill”as children, I am sure. How did many of us lose this?

When I was writing and compiling my book, The Fairy Field Guide, the Fairies and Nature Spirits had a continuous message–to bring in joy. Joy was the key to abundance, to happiness, to health. My greatest challenge has been holding on to joy in the midst of deep sadness, disappointment and even, loss of hope. I am finding that my essential nature and soul IS joyous–it’s my natural state, so I am like one big rubber band–always bouncing back to finding that joyful place.

I watched an Academy Award-winning movie on DVD yesterday, Cold Mountain. What the characters endured was the complete opposite of joy, and yet by the end of the movie, they are seen enjoying life and its bounty full-heartedly. I was amazed. After everything they had experienced, wouldn’t you have been broken, shut down from life? Perhaps by feeling the worst of this world they had a greater appreciation for what is joyful and bright. Perhaps they held onto the tiny bit of joy that was hidden in the dark? As an empath and a sensitive, it is all too easy to get lost in the dark and what I feel around me. Maybe the solution is to pull out that joy and that light–the flower– that is hidden in the dark.

new thinking · spiritual lessons

You Don’t Have to do it “right”

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Today, just a little reminder, that you have permission to do things “wrong.”

You can think crappy, resonate at a lower vibration, not think about what you want instead of what you DO want and worry. All of it! You will have off-days. You will have times when you feel angry and are releasing stuff from the past  (that’s a good thing!) You will have days you get swept up in the fear around you (sometimes it is hard not to). You will have days filled with frustration (and who doesn’t?). You are in a human body enjoying earth school, and just like in school, you may fail a class or a test and still continue on. You are here to learn, not get everything “right.” And sometimes, there are no right’s. Sometimes, you are meant to get angry. Your anger may be just the thing to help another. So just today, cut yourself some slack.

healing · new thinking · spiritual lessons

Cleaning house & core issues 2

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I am proud to say my blog was listed in a search under “freaky psychic.” Don’t be jealous. 🙂

Many of us I have mentioned are experiencing some heavy duty cleaning of house and in-your-face core issues coming to the surface. I’ve been experiencing a big time healing that has brought up my core issues and garbage that I’ve carried around since I was tiny! It’s been amazing and wild and I feel like, with this big healing I am in the process of rebirthing myself altogether. My Guides have been along side me all the way and my trust in them has been tested. I believe we should all test our helpers once and while, not blindly trust, and they are coming through this with flying colors. Hang on to all of my blog friends if your core stuff is coming to the surface. It’s time to finally clean house so we can leave it behind. We are being offered now assistance to finally have understanding behind those issues so we can soar higher. More later…

spiritual lessons

Wise will

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I am learning the difference between wise will connected to my higher self and my lower will connected to my little brain, according to the great book Spiritual Growth by Sanaya Roman, a classic. The other day I stopped at a local healer’s place and tried out a fabulous essential oil, Cardamom. With just a little rub, I felt grounded and calm. That’s the great thing about being a sensitive, a little goes a long way! The healer, Suzanne, noticed I started coughing. She said that meant my feeling area was not aligned with my head. Ain’t that the truth. I’ve been working on head-only decisions, and have lately been learning how to follow my intuition or heart/feelings, according to Sanaya, my wise will. The wise will will lead you through your feelings and what you WANT to do. Today I feel like painting canvases and making essences. My brain is telling me to go fuss on the website and worry. Which do you think I will listen to?

Tomorrow I hope to write about the odd vision I had. There is always so much to write about and share!

new thinking · spiritual lessons

Grabbing for Gratitude

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I’m down today. I miss my beagle. Things are dying off in my life and changing and it hasn’t been easy. I’m changing, growing. Come the end of the year, some things I will let go of-business and focus-wise. The doors that are opening are all involving moving into the role of teacher, which suits me fine. It’s time to teach about healing with nature, healing ourselves and our animals, and working with Spirit.

When our moods suck it is always good to grab for some gratitude, I am reminded. So, here goes.

I am grateful for:

1. Lilibeth is no longer in any pain. She can be with Jake, run on grass, and see. I know her spirit lives on. I’ve seen and felt it.

2. The wonderful friends I’ve made in the blogging world who have lent their support and good wishes. I went into creating my design blog for the purpose of making sales. Silly me. What it has become is a place for deep support.

3. My husband and I celebrate our 18th anniversary tomorrow. I am grateful we are still married in spite of how hard life has been in the past few years. We haven’t killed each other, which is a good thing, and we still love each other. I honestly couldn’t have made it this far without him.

4. I grateful for Emma Lou, our reincarnated dog, for Foxy Cleopatra, our angel dog, for Sarah our barking dog, and even Jessica, our 2-legged, who drives me crazy. Everyone stay put for awhile please. 🙂

5. My wonderful close friends, who have gone way beyond my expectations, even when they were going through their own awful stuff, they were there for me.

6. I was able to pay the electric bill and have food, & put gas in the car. Woo-hoo!

7. I am grateful for that glimpse of the bigger me, that feeling that is “all there is”, although I don’t know yet how to integrate that new vision into who I am or who I am becoming. Thank you to my spirit helpers who help me even though I can be a major pain in the ass.

8. A big thanks to all the students I’ve had through the year, who have been willing and excited to learn the information I had to pass along.

When we write our gratitude lists, it is amazing that our values and what is important to us make themselves quite clear.

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If you like my writing…

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I have a new ebook out. It is the first one in a series of color-coded diaries–notes on my journey and what I’ve learned from my Guardian Angels and my Spirit Helpers, including, tips on grounding, psychic boundaries, manifesting and more. Here’s some excerpts:

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The book is in cool diary form. Check it out here on my site.

healing · spiritual lessons

Core stuff, breaking away

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I read in Karen’s What’s Up on Planet Earth that what we are all experiencing is the darkness right now. As we go up the ladder, higher and higher, we are bound to pass the darkness leaving all around us. Now, sometimes the negativity IS in us, wanting to leave. I, and my loved ones and friends, are feeling all of this strongly. We are all dealing with our core, deep issues. You know, the ones that push that little button that throws you back to when you were a little child. The uglies! It’s time to do some house-cleaning and clean up and get rid of that core belief that you learned that doesn’t even to begin to reflect who you are inside! Yes, we weren’t really seen for the bright stars that we were. How could we be? We were raised by folks who didn’t see or were taught to see their own shining light. We can heal this for them too. Bring that nasty belief out of the woodwork now. Unfold it and lay it out on the bed before you. Yes, it’s nasty. Yes, it hurts, but it isn’t real. It’s not a truth. And now, it’s out in the open, lying right in front of you, so it can’t hide anymore.
Feel that pain and break away from the mask you once worn that tried to hide you from this false truth, whether the mask showed up as an addiction, a stress reliever, or a compulsive obsession. Mine is..hopefully, was, work. I thought (deep down inside) that what I accomplish is ME. What I DO to please others is ME. Now I am experiencing a mini-death to my mask-self. Mask-self isn’t working. It’s not fixing the belief or making it go away. All that is left is ME. And then I have to feel the pain that I felt before I made this mask-self so I would be “Okay.” Big frickin’ OUCH. But, you know what? It wasn’t ME and will never be ME. And ME is enough. And anyone who thinks or feels ME isn’t enough, doesn’t deserve to be in my new little universe.

Gut honesty. Gut vulnerability. I showed you mine, what’s yours?