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IF:Cocoon

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For IF, I thought of my Barriers and Protection gown. I wish I had it sewn for real. Nowadays, everyone I know is going through major stuff and could really use a cocoon. Ironically, I just wrote about needing a safe place in my previous blog post.

I’ve been really diggin’ creating my Fairy Goddess Gowns and making custom Goddess Gown drawings. It must be the influence of watching so  much Project Runway previous series. I’m currently on Season 6 in my Netflix rotation. I find that I can express my deepest part of me–another way to access my intuition–through these drawings, and often find telling symbolism I missed way after I’ve drawn.

new thinking · sensitivity · spiritual lessons

Grabbing Backwards so you don’t move forward

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Moving forward is scary. Bursting through that comfort zone isn’t always what we want to do. This weekend I had a down day. My energy was knee deep in the past and I was feeling downright awful.

Once again, Sarah, my beagle mix, was my teacher. Last night for the first time in a long time, she was pacing the hallways and not listening to me and reverting to old behaviors. This is how she was when we lived at the other house and when life was filled with chaos. What a great picture she gave me to see my own energy reflected back. I even had the nerve to get mad at Sarah and yelled at her!

The problem was not that I wasn’t moving forward, but I finally was. I had moved past boulders of childhood and current stuff and was coming to the end of understanding so much. I even had realized what this new Ronni wanted in her life. That’s when fear stepped in. With fear, I tend to grab on mentally and rework and analyze things to pieces, whatever I can grab onto. This usually involves pouring over notebooks and writing. I do believe that is what I did the other day.

I think this is a normal part of the process for most of us. We grab onto “backwards” when we find ourselves moving forwards quickly into an unknown. It must be a human thing.

So I ask myself what I am truly needing instead of chastising myself. A new concept! I need to grieve, yes. That’s part of the process. Looking at the past, I can still hold on to what worked or what was dear, but then I get very lost in the pain and what didn’t. I think I need to find a way to soften the moving forward so I feel safe. In meditation I saw myself like Alice in Wonderland after she takes the “eat me” or was it, “drink me.” She grows so big she is cramped into a tiny hallway  and finally her limbs burst through the windows of the house. Being that big can be a bit scary. Change is scary. Losing what was support and foundation is scary. Can in this moment I make a safe nest among the change?

I immediately think of  Speedy, my tortoise. When I let him out in the morning, I watch as he zooms around the house confidently exploring all that he can. He’s so brave as he conquers obstacles in the way like dog tails and shoes. But when he feels scared or threatened, he pops his head in or finds a corner to hide for a little while. In his tank, he heads for his little turtle tunnel to hide under. I need to create a safe corner or tunnel for in between my explorations into this new world. Maybe that is what all the ruminating about the past is about–popping my head into the past because it’s comfortable and known. It’s an unsuccessful attempt to have a stop in my movement.

Today I will explore a healthier safe corner to pop my head into instead.

empaths · healing · Psychic Room · psychic tips · sensitivity · spiritual lessons · writing

5 Steps to Reawaken Your Inner Fairy

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Steps to Reawaken Your Authentic Inner Fairy Self:

STEP ONE: Reintroduce the Fairies into your life and learn how to heal with your own backyard.
FB101 Fairy Beginner & Flower Essence Class
F101 Fairies 101 Introduction Class
COM101 Animal & Fairy Communication

STEP TWO: Connect even deeper with your animals.
(Fairies have a deep connection to animals.)
COM102 Animal Communication
HA101 Animal Healing with Nature & Fairies
AM101 Animal Mediumship: After Death Communication

STEP THREE: Take care of your developing sensitive self.
(You may be an empath already and need tools, or by doing this work you find you are becoming more sensitive.)
CS101 Care of the Sensitive
RT101 Healing with Rocks & Trees

STEP FOUR: Bring back joy into your life and rediscover you, your authentic inner fairy.
FJ200 Fairy Joy class

STEP FIVE: (COMING): Go deeper: become a fairy detective.

Sign up for Fairy Online School classes at the Online Class page.

empaths · sensitivity · spiritual lessons · whimsical illustration

Empaths carry too much

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Everyone I know is going through major stuff.

It’s like we all decided that now is the time to really deal with the big issues of our lives, and get rid of major karma–major hindrances–so we can finally be free. Unfortunately, this doesn’t always look or feel pretty. I joke lately how what I’ve gone through in the the past six months equaled the combined experiences of the dentist’s root canal, a pap smear and having to give a speech in grade school class totally unprepared. As hard as it has been, on the positive side, I am also clearing out major beliefs that I held onto for years.

What I’ve discovered…

Have you ever stopped and realized how much of our stuff isn’t our stuff at all? As sensitive folk, this is much the case. We carry so much for others without realizing it. In my work on healing, I’ve seen so much I’ve picked up and internalized from my loved ones, and even beliefs or issues that were my parents from long ago. Perhaps as sensitive little empaths, we sponged all that wasn’t said or acknowledged, and in our desire to help, we took it on.

How much of us believe the following:

  • Parents should sacrifice themselves completely for their children.
  • We are only as worthy as the amount we give to others.
  • Carrying for others is caring.
  • What we do and accomplish = our worth.
  • Who you are is either bad or good as judged by your behaviors.

It’s amazing how much these beliefs can block us. I found that out.

And now, it’s like I am having a huge identity crisis. Who am I without the old life and these beliefs that shaped my world? I guess I will soon find out.

(character: the scientist)

empaths · Intuition · sensitivity

Recognizing Energies

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I’ve been quite absent from my biz and my blog. As I prepare for a rebirth, there is much to do. I am still contemplating the fate of my website, ronniannhall.com, as my name may even change, and my focus is changing. I am still awaiting guidance.

I’ve been learning so much lately–huge lessons! The energies in the air are pretty wild lately. You almost need one of those pool floaty things to stay above the water. Many souls have been leaving, and many huge shake-ups. Gratefully, I am hearing my guidance louder than ever. I’ve got stalker Guides!

So, let’s talk about energy. It’s the perfect new age woo-woo term that has gone mainstream. I am learning the fine art of recognizing energy. Creepy stalker guy friend who appears to be helpful and nice, but something doesn’t feel right at all? Listen to that feeling. That creepy feeling was an alternative motive. Don’t listen to the words, but notice the feeling.

For many of us, we have shut down our feelers. Strong empaths may have learned this survival technique. But this is our lifeline! Find a safe place to feel and then tune in: creepy feeling, good feeling, sad feeling? And listen to your gut. Everything may LOOK perfect, but does it feel good?

empaths · Seeing Things · sensitivity

Contacts vs. Glasses & the Empath

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It’s amazing how switching from glasses to contact lenses again has changed my perception in life.

One thing I have noticed is I felt more protected when I had glasses. This seems strange.The glasses created a nice barrier between what I was seeing and the world. Without them, I feel vulnerable and exposed.

Being so empathic, I realize that if indeed, the eyes are a window to the soul, perhaps by seeing eye-to-eye with others I may have the tendency to jump in and read too much of another person. I don’t need to go there! My glasses are usually always dirty in some way so that extra barrier must help also.

I feel more attractive with the contact lenses back in place after the long absence, perhaps after years of brainwashing that girls with glasses don’t get passes? Ha ha. I am not sure. It’s not to the world I want to feel attractive with, but myself. I can see my eyes again and all the emotion behind them.

Seeing clearly has other disadvantages. Did I really want to notice this or that? I already notice too much in my environment. It’s almost another barrier to focusing on myself and my own world–another trap for an empath.

As I write this, my left contact is growing fuzzy. Resistant to the new vision? Do I want to run for the glasses and hide again? Maybe…