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5 Days of White Pansy and Trust

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I  think  God’s  knowledge  is  in  the  flowers.

I’ve been instructed to use the White Pansy essence I’ve made for dealing with issues of trust. Since I arrogantly expect my clients to use the essences I recommend, I concluded I needed to listen to my own guidance and take the suggestion.

What’s the deal with trust? Why is it so hard to trust that things will work out and the Divine will take care of things when we are faced with tough circumstances that, logically, would make no sense for us to trust in the good?

Day one of taking White Pansy flower essence. I felt my bitter thoughts rise to the surface. I had reason not to trust. I had a long list created in the past few years. Spirit tells me that I often take on others’ faults that are not my own. This makes no sense to me or why this message is relevant to trusting.

Day two. I was journalling like a crazy-flowing pen nut. Insights rose alongside the nasty bitter thoughts. I wasn’t feeling Miss Spiritual at that moment. Not Miss Positive or the teacher I came here to be. It was ugly–I was releasing.

Day three. Things began to shift. I felt more hopeful about life. I was seeing the little ways my Guides helped me every day and I could trust that guidance. If I needed something, it came about.

That morning I unloaded my sadness on my one pal and recalled a time of high stress trauma last year when I lived off my birthday cake for months. I think it was the sugar high I was using to cope with. It started to get a little gross, and my friend shared with me, that at the time, she thought I was eating that cake probably beyond when it was still edible. We laughed about this and I told her I secretly was craving birthday cake at the moment and would love to have some.

Later I walked the girls around the neighborhood, and Danny, my neighbor, came over and told me it was his birthday and they were having a party. Would I like some birthday cake?

Perhaps this is a story of the shelf life of cake and when to throw it out, or  instant validation that I am being taken care of and can trust that, even when I feel that this world is ignoring me and what I need.

Day four. Things shift in my head. I am reminded of all the times outside world looked really bad but was asked by guidance and intuition to trust in the good. I am shown, again, how I am led and taken care of, but still I wonder, why then, was bad things allowed to happen in my life? Where people acting badly were allowed to stay ignorant? What about that? I am in a battle in my head and it’s scary. Which side will win?

Day five. Meltdown. The healing crisis. My loved-one is going through a recurring theme lesson which I relate to.  Finally, the floodgates open with a good cry. It’s a bigger lesson here for me. A huge insight comes through: that throughout my lifetime, when bad things happened or went wrong I was too quick as an empath to jump in and take the fault–think it was something wrong with me. What I saw in my life was often others allowing me to do so or “passing the buck” when they screwed up.

When I was born, I came in with a messed-up stomach. My parents couldn’t fix it and the doctors said I’d just outgrow it. Not a great deal was done for me as I was usually in continuous discomfort. I think in that moment I felt I couldn’t trust “out there.” They let me down. I was allowed to suffer.  That was too hard as a child to face, so I coped by taking it on–it was my fault in some way. I was defective. That’s what kids often believe and do. Making it your fault you can do something about it, or perhaps, create order where the outside order makes no sense or isn’t fair.

My parents and the doctors may have thrown it on me in frustration, and they did care about what I needed, but it was just their ignorance–not knowing other answers or solutions at that time.

I’ve been working through this one issue, henceforth the repeat lessons:

I think about the time Sarah had her inner ear problem and the vet said she had a major neurological issue which would need thousands of dollars of tests and would get much worse. She told me not to feel bad if I had to put her to sleep!  She threw Predisone at her which made her wired and sick. My friend, Cheryl, a naturopathic doctor brought new solutions. She gave Sarah homeopathy and bowen work and although Sarah tilts a little to the right, she does fabulous now. I trusted my intuition and my guidance, and communications from Sarah, that said she’d be fine even though the picture the vet game me differed. I looked for a different answer.

What is harder to heal and what made it hard for me to trust is the last few years when a system created to support families screwed up over and over and wanted to throw it on the family. Cries were not heard. Mistake after mistake. Cover up after cover up of their mistakes. Once again, we were allowed to suffer, and things went horribly wrong. That’s the system here. I will not this time take on the blame. The bottom line is, they are ignorant. They don’t know other answers, like the doctors and the vet, and sadly, they aren’t willing to find them.

So, I am being ignorant when I don’t see there are other answers outside the box and I simply accept “reality.” That’s what I do when I don’t trust Spirit or my guidance and I don’t even fathom there are other solutions that Spirit can create that I don’t know about yet.

I need to grieve those times I was let down and trusted as a small child and as an adult. I’ve being shown this is the block that is in the way of me believing again. The flower has done her job as I shift slowly into more a place of balance by having new answers and then new understanding.

I am still a “show me and prove it” kind of person. The flower can’t change that. I don’t blindly believe. I need to see and hear validation, so that is how Spirit will work with me…for now, until I automatically trust and always look for new answers.

I share this with you because many are going through a greater issue of trust as the world changes and purges all around us, and each of us has our own reasons or experiences that block why we trust in the good. I also wanted to demonstrate how the flower essences work with us to heal. This beautiful flower, a piece of Nature, assisted me in finding out where this issue came from in me. Boy, I really love flower essences! (Okay, my Guides helped too. 🙂 )

Find new answers, Dear one, that this world can’t give you.

Fairy blessings,


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White Pansy is available on my Flower Essences for the Sensitive page for purchase, if you feel guided for help in trusting at this time. I am also here to act as translator for your Guides’ assistance.

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I’m not that kind of psychic

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On Facebook, once, I got in big trouble when I said if I was THAT type of psychic–able to tell the future– I’d play the lottery to win. The woman, being very virtuous, said, “Oh no, you shouldn’t use your gifts for that.”

It was funny at the time. But this incident did bring up an interesting question. There are psychics that predict things. They can “see” if you are going to have children, or move, or jump up and down sideways in the next five minutes. These predictions, of course, can change with your choices. You could go right instead of left.

I am not one of those kinds of psychics. And yes, I’d probably play the numbers. If I had a ton of money, I could really help and reach out to a great deal of people.

My gifts lie in talking to Spirit. I cheat a little. Your Guides come in and tell me what you need to know, or if one career would be better, or what you are working on. They whisper in my ear. That’s how I know so much. The same for the animals. If they don’t tell me, I don’t know. I could empathically feel what feels right or wrong, what your soul wants, but even that is psychic information I’m picking up. I have no idea how the psychics that do predictions to what they do. It’s just a different gift. And to be quite honest, only in the last few years do I call myself a psychic. I’m not comfortable with that title. I just am what I am and what I can do that I think many can.

And yes, like everyone else, I get pissed off at my Guides when they won’t tell me what is going to happen. They only know probabilities, or your big picture blueprint, and they’ve been pretty cool lately letting me know, at least, that things would be okay or work out vs. being a disaster.

We all want to know timing. When will this happen? I wrote  a funny blog post on this topic. It never seems to be exact unless of course, it was from my reincarnated dog who came back in March and said March. She was quite accurate.

If you are a fellow empath or medium, that’s how you get your psychic information. It’s passed along. The empath part–you can go in deep and read what’s there or felt. I’ve done this with medical issues in animals, but I think it’s more info from the animals telling me and their Guides.

What kind of psychic ability do you have?

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Spirit and Angel Hugs

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Yesterday I was feeling sad and reflecting on a problem I had, and I felt a presence to the right of me say, “It will be okay. It will work out.” I then felt a spirit hug: yummy chills up and down my body. I love that!

Because I like to teach and share my experiences, I did what every detective and scientist would do. I analyzed what happened.

Was the voice inside my head like my own thought or outside my head? No, I’m not schizophrenic and hear voices, so it did come into my head like when I experience telepathy with the animals. It was more a foreign thought then my own. I was feeling sad and working on my site before this visit message, and that is where my focus was. I wasn’t thinking positively.

I experimented later on–forcing a thought to come through. It was like mind constipation. It sure didn’t flow. I also noticed that my head went quiet and I felt alone in the room vs. when I heard the message.

In my classes, I often have students practice the “rubber ball” technique. Students are divided into teams of two and practice sending with their minds different images of different colors, like a rubber ball. Students do a terrible job when they are trying so hard. No one receives any correct images. And forcing to send an image so forcefully creates so much psychic static no one can hear.

Spirit or Angel? I’d have to say Spirit. Spirit guides and friends are those who have passed and we have loved. Angel messages, for me, feel more behind me, feel large and encompassing. Spirits feel like they are in the room with me and communicate through telepathy or thoughts. I can feel if they are feminine or masculine. If I had tuned in more and asked, the spirit may have told me who they were, but it was a quick visit.

Your Spirit Guides can serve as guardian angels. I know mine do.

Have you had a spirit or angel hug during a visit?

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Hearing

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The theme of Hearing has been on my mind lately.

I am noticing I am hearing psychically more and more. This can be a great asset for my business helping others. I simply tune in and I hear messages loudly and clearly. Long ago, when I first started this work, I’d have to sit down and clear my mind and try to meditate first. It felt like a struggle to hear correctly and I doubted much of what I received because I was so new at it. (That’s hope for those just starting out). Not so anymore. It’s always there like a fast moving stream I tap into.

I easily hear my Guides also, now instead of in mediation, often throughout the day. It feels like light-bulb moments of knowing.

On the downside, I pick up telepathically from many sources and this can cause foggy thinking and confusion. I find myself having conversations with people, and even arguments, from far away. The other day, I picked up on thoughts and energy of a client an entire day before a session, and didn’t know it until after the fact. Not a good thing. I am realizing I need to have my Doorkeeper stronger in place and create better psychic filters as this ability expands.

I am also noticing where I don’t feel heard. Being heard is very important in relationships. You may have a different opinion on what I should do or think, but hear me, and what is important to me. When you don’t hear me it is usually because you are in the way. That’s a big indication you are seeing through your filter and experiences. That’s a good reminder for me not to take things personally at those times when I don’t feel heard.

I am hearing my girls better lately also. Sarah, my beagle mix girl, who I often mention, has always communicated through feeling. She’s not one I pick up through thoughts or hearing. Yet, lately, I can hear her. I think that maybe she resonates at a different frequency I am picking up now.

I am hearing my loved one better also. Really hearing what he has to say and going beyond the surface to what is going on. I hear his pain. Really see him underneath the layers.

But most importantly, I am hearing myself more. What I want, need, and feel. Not what other people want for me or think what is best, but what I think it is best. It’s a new shift for me, and it’s a little scary. I’m dealing with a deep fear: What if I don’t please others but I please myself?

What if, the times I complain I am not being heard or have been forgotten, and I scream at my Guides, it is a time I am not taking the time to sit down and hear myself? I am ignoring that little girl in me who is crying out and saying what she needs, but I am dismissing her.

Ironically, my ears have been hurting. Perhaps they are adjusting to the expansion, just like I am, psychologically.

Be heard, dear readers.

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Banish the Blah Bubbles – Excerpt Friday

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As an integral part of the Fairy Beginner class, I have students do a seemingly simple exercise that is very telling. I designed it almost 5 years ago, and the last few weeks I realized how important this exercise is.

For fun I am going to do the Banish the Blah Bubble 30 day challenge. I encourage you to do the same.

For each day I will create a bubble or circle (I created flowers from my Art journal pages for fun) and will write down what brought me true joy that day or gave me energy or a rise. This is true guidance from myself.

The interesting thing is what makes me happy, and truly happy, may be very different than someone else’s bubble. My “yes” may be your “no.” I am stripping away where I have molded, compromised, agreed to, and isn’t mine.  I may think I like walking, but maybe I’d prefer dancing for my exercise. Maybe others see me in a life of travel but I’d prefer a secure homebase to feel grounded and happy. My bubbles will lead me there. I made the above bubbles 5 years ago, and I am surprised by some of my joys and many have changed, as have I. I might not want the same things as time goes on either, but my bubbles tell me what I do want in the present.

Here’s my bubble for yesterday, which is officially Day 1 of my challenge. I dare you too.

And for what doesn’t work for me and lands on my Nasty Fairy list, I present:

The WTF Award

I secretly have a WTF award (okay, now it is not a secret), I give out in my mind each week to the stupidest words said to me or the behavior that was just crazy or mean. This week I give this prestigious award to the Weed Guy who is supposed to call ahead before spraying the yard with toxic chemicals. He left me an answering machine message he was swinging by not saying when and just hoped the dogs wouldn’t be out. WTF?? I do give him the benefit of the doubt because I do think there is some damage there from inhaling so much weed killers, but this about the safety of my girls that I don’t take lightly.

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The Nasty Fairy

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March newsletter lesson and Question to Ponder is now out. To sign up and read all about the Nasty Fairy and read what she has to teach you here.


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Comfort Cards

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One of my favorite missions is empowering women. Many of the lessons I’ve learned working with Guides and Angels have been messages on how to nurture or encourage myself. These messages were compiled and accompany my line of illustrated Comfort Cards to be comfort for you. Cards are available as prints and postcards at my Etsy store. Load up a few as nice reminders.

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I’m having the weirdest day and mysteries solved

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This has truly been an odd day. Today’s theme: solving mysteries!

Emma Lou, those of you who read my blog know she’s my basset hound, ate a box of gum yesterday. I still don’t know how she got it out of my purse, which was mostly closed and hanging on my chair hidden under a bunch of coats. I only know there was evidence of the box out in the yard. And, yes, oddly enough, her body must thrive on gum because she’s perfectly fine. That mystery hasn’t been solved yet. I think it has something to do with her very long stomach that made it doable. But grateful, a scary thing was taken care of on its own. (I did give her homeopathy and flower essences for making sure things kept moving.)

This morning, a reader led me to an article on personality disorders that helped me with a clue dealing with a person I knew in the past offering big-time validation. I’m so grateful that guidance came in such a round-about way but solved another mystery why she acted like she did.

I was so exhausted today that when I went to buy t.p. at the grocery store, I used my wrong debit card and thought I overdrawn my other account. If I had just bought the t.p. I’d been fine, but I got cash back without thinking.  Knowing I had a automatic payment coming through for my car insurance, I panicked. I rushed home to check my bank account and thought I just screwed up when I saw a zero balance and would probably have a fee! So I rushed back into town exhausted to the bank and found out all my upset was for naught. The car insurance payment didn’t post yet, and I had checks to deposit to cover what I needed when it did. I didn’t have to solve this one either, it was taken care of by itself.

Back at home, the neighbor mystery was finally solved. What mystery, you ask? My neighbors have been slowly disassembling their mobile home. Out when the porch. Then the shed. Then the bricks under the house. A few trees were moved. The renters were there one day and then gone the next. Then only one came back. It was fascinating to watch and wonder and quite weird. I finally got to talk to the landlords and found out that they sold the old mobile and were putting a new, fancier one in its place, which the landlords would now live in. Sounded like the renters were a bit interesting and there were quite a few stories there.

Overall thought for the day is I love solving mysteries but I especially like when they solve themselves.

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Finding your thread career guidance

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Did you ever notice that when you learn a lesson or finally “get” a message of guidance, it seems so simple yet so true?

I am learning, or actually, relearning the lesson of “finding your thread.” Many of my clients and students are in transition regarding career and feel a bit lost. For myself, I am fine-tuning or targetting that mission every day. What I have learned to pass along is the importance of identifying what are the main skills or activities you love to do.

For instance, I am finding that I what I love to do has a common thread of detective/analytical/discovery work mixed in with compiling/designing/writing, then sharing or teaching what I learned. That thread is so simple yet took a while to wade through the crap that included:

1/what I thought I should want to do

2/what others wanted for me

3/past parental pleasing

4/what the market wanted me to be

What this discovery means is when I sway off the path of that thread, I’m not happy. If I am asked to do a workshop of something I no longer am exploring, and the discovery isn’t there or the detective work, I will walk away unfulfilled.  If there is no compiling/designing or putting together in some way, I will feel like a vital part is missing. And if there is no teaching component or sharing intended to help or inspire, I will feel empty.

I love making a flower essence which includes the discovery and creating and sharing. Creating my online classes includes all of the thread. Doing a reading involves lots of detective work, sharing and even compiling. These are all “yeses.”

Years ago, I was in a television pilot that didn’t include the creation/compiling end of things, so I felt a constant frustration throughout filming. When I didn’t include that activity/skill in my practice, I felt an emptiness I couldn’t name. When I was an illustrator only, I loved creating for a problem. There’s that analytical/compiling, the sharing, and discovery. My soul has been guiding me all along to what fits and doesn’t fit. That dissatisfaction let me know I was off my path of what fits me.

Finding this thread also eleviates a great deal of compromise on my part. I can also then, resist what others want for me but doesn’t fit. I simply take their suggestion and see if it fits into my thread.

What’s your thread? What is the component in your work that makes your heart sing happy Disney songs? What activity do you do naturally and would do even if you weren’t paid? What part of your work now doesn’t fit and drains you? That’s probably not part of your thread.

Explore…

(if you do need help finding that thread and need a little Guide assistance for your search, head over to the Readings page and schedule a reading. I’d be happy to help.)

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Is it spiritual to be bitchy?

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Everything that happens in my life is one big spiritual lesson, and therefore, writing material.  I was forced to ask myself the question yesterday, in a round-about way, Do we have to be positive all the time to be spiritual and a positive force to others?

I love my parents deeply but my Dad is the type of person who always says, “Just tell me the positive things.” Growing up in that kind of environment I learned the lovely art of repression. This showed itself as minor physical ailments which we all shared as a family. Fact: I rarely cried until I was 14 and my dog died, and when I did, my whole family was in shock. That’s really sad.

You see, the “nasties” which is our humanness, has to go somewhere. I am sure when I was all light and spiritual on the Other Side, I was all positive all the time. Pop me in a body and especially one week in the month I will be hormonally affected and may not see the world in the best light. (It’s scary when I drive at that time.)

I can’t imagine not having moments when I release bits of anger, frustration, ugliness, un-spiritual thoughts, etc. I’d be like a coke bottle shaken up too many times ready to release. I’d probably end up like one of those folks that plows down a ton of people in a post office while the news reports, “She was such a nice person. Never bothered anyone. Never caused any trouble.”

I don’t know about you, but I don’t trust spiritual teachers that don’t have some humanness in them. When they make mistakes and their lives have areas that don’t work, I relate to them. When they are perfect and quote beautiful sayings all the time, I grow suspicious. What’s behind the curtain?

One of my best friends is an angel reader who says the “f-bomb” often in our private conversations. We often kid she could advertise as the reader who curses.

I won’t apologize for my bitchy, human moments. Sometimes I learn the most from them. I even was inspired to write a entry that landed in my new ebook, Spiritual Perfectionism, problem and tool #40.

Part of my healing is to not to recreate my repression-filled childhood. You can say what you want to me, and your journey is different than mine. What you believe and works for you is also different. But I won’t do that to myself, and maybe, that question posed to me yesterday, was just reminding me of that, so I wouldn’t.