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new thinking · spiritual lessons

Pulling away old beliefs; self esteem

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I love how the Universe throws in your face what you need to work on when you need to work on it. Many times, the stuff coming up is the stuff that is finally ready to leave. In the past few weeks, my past arrived at my front door–all the old stuff that brought with it old messages that when I tell myself these things I feel like poo. Had it become so automatic in me to talk to myself like that?

Our relatives visited and with them came very old roles I no longer fit into, as well as, old familiar insecurities and bad feelings from long ago. Then there were the old friends which brought back very old roles & a teenage persona, and I realized how different a person I was now. But why were the feelings that came up as raw as if I were back in those school days? Because when the stuff is leaving it IS in your face. It’s time for it to leave! All this old stuff I realized, was a great deal of other people’s stuff that I took personally. As an empath, I often do that. I get lost in the goop and forget to get out.

But that visit and the old friends & the old stuff brought me grown-up realizations which is a good thing. There were old beliefs. One big one yesterday I’d like to share. My folks believed (and still do) that your worth is based on how things look. So, whenever my life or I didn’t measure up, or wasn’t as good as, or didn’t appear big or exciting enough, I wasn’t worth while. This belief was so buried down I had no idea I even thought it! (I actually had an old boyfriend in college look at me and tell me I wasn’t glamorous enough! That same belief coming up to clear.) And you know what? Here, all along, it wasn’t my belief to begin with!

Gradually I am realizing my life, for me, is about how I feel. Am I happy? Does what I do make me feel good? Help others? Do I feel good? My soul and who I am is much more than how I appear, as for everyone of you.

What beliefs have come up for you lately that are ready to vamoose? I’ll give you a clue which ones are the old ones, any belief that starts out by saying, “You should be _____ (fill in the blank), to be acceptable.” Let it go…

manifesting · spiritual lessons

Abundance on a budget

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10 Ways to feel like you’re Abundant when your cashflow isn’t flowing:

  1. Head to the library. Where else can you walk out of a place with an arm full of free books? Our library allows 50 items at one time! I’ve walked out with 10 DVDs, 10 CDs, tons of best-selling books! And don’t forget the cheapo 25 cent magazines! I recently picked up the latest VOGUE!
  2. Sign up for My Points.  Earn enough and you can win free gift cards. My husband and I recently went to Olive Garden for free! Boy, did we need that treat. Nothing like having someone refill your water, bring you food you don’t have to make, and ask you continually if everything is all right. It’s a dream to us caregiver types!
  3. Take $10 and head to the local thrift store like the Goodwill. Not only will you give to a good cause, but you can buy several outfits! My daughter and I recently went to a Fill a bag for $1 sale. We walked away with whole wardrobes and we’re talking good quality clothes.
  4. Clean your closets or your drawers. You’d be amaze how much stuff you already have and haven’t worn!
  5. Make something. Get out the art supplies and create! This shows you you can make something out of nothing! (um, in a good way)
  6. Bake from scratch. Same concept as no. 5. You can make great things (or in my case in baking, not so much.)
  7. Collect all the loose change from under the couch, your purse, the floor. Watch for the change on the ground when you go outside.
  8. Listen to all the free radio you can find. Listen to Pandora or Faerie Radio! Nothing like good new tunes to raise your mood. (Thanks to Bill who told me about Pandora).
  9. Trade with friends. I loved the day my friend Pam gave me a huge set of acrylic paints she wasn’t needing or wanting worth tons to me.
  10. And last but not least, spend some time doing what you put off as selfish or self-indulgent. Go use the paints, read the book you’ve put off reading, use that porch swing!

You will find just by doing a few things on the list, your mood expands and floats, and next thing you know abundance comes in other ways through the door. Off to paint… (from my October newsletter).

spiritual lessons

Good vs. bad energy & going deeper

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I was going to write about one thing this morning, and realized the lesson I was learning was very different. Today I felt the difference between receiving good energy and bad energy. Good energy-wise–I received my daily message from Tut.com. I felt uplifted, powerful and excited to move on=good energy. I also received a very lovely blog review recognizing my blog as helpful=another warm, good fuzzy feeling. On the other hand, for the first time-I should feel flattered my blog is gaining such popularity-a very weird, critical and not very helpful blog comment. I questioned myself, felt yukky, and wanted to go into bad OCD-like behaviors=bad energy. Sometimes criticism is a good thing if it makes your work or services better. Good criticism might feel a little ouchy, but you know it is true. Bad criticism just doesn’t feel good. It isn’t helpful.

I would have stayed at the lesson right there, but BAM. I was reminded to go deeper. This same criticism was what I tell myself often–that if something isn’t working how I’d like it, I must not be doing it “right.” So, I need to excessively obsess over things and work harder until they are “right.” It was as if this person came along to show me this! This was old stuff and old patterns that didn’t make sense anymore. The truth for me I have found, is those who are right for your work, your services or business, “get” what you do right away. They already think it is right in every way, because it is meant for them. Haven’t you noticed this? The others will weed themselves out by asking for what you can’t give, wanting you to compromise more, and will want what you offer to be much different than what it is. I suppose this applies to relationships and life also. What do you think?

spiritual lessons

Keep it Simple

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I am noticing…that we are all asked to keep it simple. Bare it down to what is important and what really matters. This comes in different ways like when we spared down to a smaller yet cozier home. Or when we are asked to drop things work-wise and focus in on new things or redevelop old things. When we pare down we notice what feels good, who we want to spend time with, and what are hearts really want. This isn’t always easy, of course. I am the first to hold on to the old for dear life until I am kicking and screaming (I am so getting better with this!) How do we know what to keep? Whatever has the most energy for you, is like a signpost, “Go this way.” That’s what I’ve noticed. How about you?

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We are all energy-I get it!

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I am one of those folks who believe it when I see it, or in this case, feel it. I suppose that is why I have in the last few years seen quite a few miraculous things. The other night, I was wide open, traveling in meditation, and had the amazing discovery that we are all energy or vibrations like stations on a radio. Okay, now we all know this. We’ve read it, heard it. But it was the first time I really felt it–it was exaggerated.

Sarah, our teagle beagle, jumped on the bed with her morning nervous energy. I felt her static, hyper energy, that to me felt physically very uncomfortable. I winced. I felt it on my own body as nervousness, that jumpy feeling. Then Emma Lou jumped on the bed, and her energy or radio station felt like it was set to “calm” or “elevator music.” Her energy was flowing and felt gentle and soft. Very comfortable to me. I realized on the microscopic feeling level, that is why some folks resonate with us and some don’t, although we are not consciously aware of it.

The other night I watched my classmates’ video creations in the DVD class. Our assignment was to edit film clips to accompany a piece of music of our choosing. Several of the movies were hard for me to watch. There was flashing, hard images and loud, jarring music. My eyes felt assaulted. Some folks’ energy is like this to me, only because my energy is different, although I do have days when my energy is like Sarah’s morning energy, and I suppose to Emma Lou, I am very jarring. Those days Emma doesn’t dig the music I am playing.

manifesting · spiritual lessons

Spirit leads and tribal belief

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I haven’t posted in my art blog. I haven’t wanted to as much. But I wrote a more “aware” post over there regarding a great book by Sonia Choquette and an exercise in following your spirit here.

I am amazed how much my body talks! After getting over the cough and throat clearing, my daughter came home with the cough the other day. Now I’m sneezing. Maybe it’s allergies, which is possible, except when I checked in I learned I was still clearing! Man, is it done yet???? I mean, I know we are growing to a new vibration, etc. etc., but I want to feel better! I felt all this, then I went to sleep. I had an amazing dream. I was with my Mom in my childhood house (hmm, childhood), and a man came to the door wanting us to vote on a poll. He had a flashing sign (there’s your sign), it said, TRIBAL BELIEFS or MAGIC.

I scanned the net for info on TRIBAL BELIEFS and read about relating to root chakra, etc. And then I read an article from a book on a man who was dying rather than rest and take care of himself. He was working himself to death for the sake of his family. Well, something in that resonate because I began to have a coughing fit. I kept coughing and dripping and I was like, Okay, I get it! I’ve been learning–slowly–how to balance taking care of myself with taking care of others/giving. I am trying to stop justifying my overconcern with working and putting out too much. My Guides just call it “striving.” I think it’s alot of stuff I adopted from my Mom, who was very accomplished, but overly concerned with acchievement. Her back would be hurting, she’d feel sick, but darnit, she’d still go to work and bring work home.

The magic part…I am witnessing a different way to do everything. What we all know is the gift of manifesting, allowing, trusting, etc. All the stuff we’ve been taught lately. But I’ve had a hard time letting go of the old way and embrace the new way. (Ha ha, much like the country!) There’s that fear, the what if’s. And that fear has been strong. I guess it is all a process.

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Take Your Time

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After obsessing, pushing, trying and forcing today, I jumped into my car to hear the following words:

Lyrics | SOS Band – Take Your Time (Do It Right) lyrics

healing · spiritual lessons

Throat chakras and the new you

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The full moon and the eclipse are pushing out the last bits of the stuff we don’t need regarding expression. Unfortunately, this has been a huge area of healing for me which would explain the big clearing necessary. I’ve had more dreams about helping people heal their throats in the past 2 weeks!

So, what happens once everything is clearer and brighter and we’ve gotten rid of ton of poo? Probably what I am beginning to experience. A bit of an identity crisis! Who am I now? If all that I was was wrapped up in all these false beliefs, now what? Perhaps now I can rethink my world and my path. Go back to the essence of what I loved to do or who I am.

  • I am going to buy some blue hair dye possibly, maybe even pink. I want some streaks in my hair.
  • I want more community support, that seems a bit lacking (except for my blog friends. I love you guys!)
  • I need much more dog kisses in my life after all, Dog is GOD spelled backwards.
  • More steady flow of abundance. I get big bursts than low calms.
  • Less work, more play. That’s a big one. I am such a workaholic.
  • A lot less effort in life. It shouldn’t be this much work to get what you need.
  • More color.
  • Less complaints.
  • And finally, no more trying so hard, no more proving myself. It’s all good now. Anyone know where to get some quality blue hair dye?
Animal Communication · Guardian Angels · spiritual lessons

It’s been crazy…lost dogs and others

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I am amazed at this week’s happenings.

Bruiser the dog’s Mom emailed me that he had ran off again in another city. He gets spooked easily and they had been travelling to many new towns for her work on her books.  I’ve been exhausted lately with Foxy’s illness and now recovery, our beagle friend showing up and then leaving, so I wasn’t sure if I had the energy to help. I checked in and felt Bruiser’s confusion and fear, and only a few words. So, I did what I do before I teach a class, I ask my Guides and Angels to assist and guide me to teach and say the right things, after all, they are the experts. As soon as I did, the message I received was crystal clear and of a different nature. I was expecting directions to where he was, which he gave some landmarks, but instead, he delivered a personal message to Lorraine. Check out the story here.

Right along the same lines, during a meditation last week while our beagle friend was visiting, a vision of a golden retriever named Sally* stopped in with a message. She let me know this beagle was not Lilibeth, but a higher spirit who had come in to spread joy in the family after we were all exhausted and upset from Foxy’s illness and almost passing. Imagine my surprise when a client called several days later for an after-death session with a dog who looked exactly like the spirit who visited. The client’s nickname was Sally*! My dog client was actually a boy who used that name so Mom would know he visited and was aware of the reading. Many times animals do check me out first before a reading, and arrange the readings, and here was proof.

These incidents reminded me of how much everything is arranged behind the scenes–we only need to flow with it all, show up and do what we do. Amazing.

spiritual lessons

Miracles

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Just today ask for a miracle.