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The Universe/God Has a Sense of Humor

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I was playing around with the concept of manifesting and asking for more. I decided to ask for a specific monetary amount to arrive in the next few days. When I realized I was asking too little, I  blurted “$1000! I want a $1000 in the next few days.”

I received this in the mail.

Look closer…

Even more than I asked for!

Did I mention you need to be specific when you ask for things? Like, I could actually cash this check. The check was from a used car dealership  supposedly I could use towards a down payment on a new car.

🙂

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Daily Bliss

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I am taking Sheri Gaynor’s online Creative Awakenings 30 Day Expedition. One part of that is to participate in 30 days of daily bliss. Being an artist, I thought I’d take advantage of this opportunity to draw out my bliss. Here’s the first few days:

After participating in one day of bliss-making, I experienced a fun cosmic joke. On the highway I found myself following a truck. The back said “Bliss.” I had to laugh out loud when my thick brain grabbed the message “I was following my bliss.” Ha ha! Well, we will see. One day at a time to a new Ronni.

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How Not To Manifest-repost

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I was going through my blog posts to put together for a writing portfolio, and I came across my favorite post on manifesting. It still works, or, um, doesn’t work today.

  1. Obsess over what you don’t have. This is very important for not manifesting what you want.
  2. Freak out completely over what is missing.
  3. Begin to deteriorate emotionally and question if your Guides give a flying monkey or not if you eat, or have gas money, or what you need. Don’t trust at all. And absolutely, don’t, under any circumstances, remind yourself of times when your Guides and the Universe came through for you. This may be the time they don’t.
  4. Feel resentment because what you need isn’t coming from the sources you think it should. Resent everyone. It’s probably their fault.
  5. Don’t allow yourself to play, relax, or enjoy anything, because after all, you need to only focus on creating what you need. This is the responsible way to do things.
  6. Be extra hard on yourself for not manifesting what you need. Tell yourself you are flawed in some way or that no one cares about you.
  7. Force yourself to do things you hate, or that you should do, to get what you want.
  8. Obsess some more. Obsessing is always a good thing to show the Universe how much you really care.
  9. And finally, and this is very important, take all of this very, very seriously.
art · healing · Intuition · manifesting · new thinking · spiritual lessons · writing

Losing my heart food

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I think my heart is closed down.

I just came back from a dance class at the college, which felt glorious and fun. Doing fun dance steps, swaying to the beats of the music, brought me back to the olden days when dancing was nurturing for me. I practically grew up in a dance studio from the time I was four or five. My second home, is what my Mom would call it. The poor woman had to play taximom to my sister and I back and forth to the studio. I grew up with the owner’s daughter, Haley, and I have fond memories of playing with Dawn dolls and dollhouses in her room at the back of the studio.

There are some bad memories too, when I got older in high school, still dancing, but then battling body image, a tough teacher now saying curves were not good, and as a result, the beginning of an eating disorder. Some of those memories are coming back as my older body has entered the dance class among the young ones, but I don’t want those memories to override my joy.

The coincidences are overpowering right now in regards to this class. My one dance teacher was Russian and called me affectionately “Runny.” This teacher at the college is also Russian. When I heard her call my name the same way, mixed feelings swept through me.

Old loves and lost joy are the themes coming up for me now. I used to adore writing and took every class at the college I could. My first writing class I met one of my best friends and felt a delicious belonging I hadn’t felt for some time. I am now taking a class in play and screenwriting, which brings me back to my acting days, more times of belonging and happiness.

I haven’t lost drawing, which I am grateful for. Through the years, however hard they may have been, I kept at it. Paper and pen flowing.

Ironically, I taught my Fairy Joy class this summer for the first time. I needed the class most of all. You see, I had lost my joy and closed my heart. I know this now. We are raising a very sweet and charming kid, who has lots and lots of issues from having a very tough beginning. That beginning colored her world and made it a place of hard survival and trauma. The problem is, she doesn’t differentiate between then and now. She has the same tactics: manipulation to get what she needs, lying, false accusations, splitting, triangulation, creating drama, etc. It’s way above even the normal teenage stuff. But what she shows others is a perfect young girl, so we look like the bad guys. As you can imagine, it’s been very, very hard for us to give while not feeling anger.

So, I am exhausted. I’m spent. My husband and I  meet with several therapists a week to learn how to parent her and try to undo the exhaustion, the lack of joy, and the misunderstood & uneducated comments from the outside world.

Which brings me back to my joy and the classes. What I wrote first here is the most telling. Dance was nurturing. Through trips to the studio I spent time with my Mom, who has since crossed over too early. Mom was nurturance growing up. Writing is from my soul–a gift from me to you. Drawing connects me to that little girl unaffected by the losses and pains of the world. In the process of trying to heal our little girl, we got caught up and began to live in the rollercoaster of her world–a very dark, hurting place. And much worse, those who were meant to be helpful, hurt us much more, by not witnessing us or honoring our needs. From this dark place, we forgot how to nurture ourselves. We may even have felt we didn’t deserve to be nurtured. The message we repeatedly got: Parents only give selflessly and have no needs of their own. I’ve seen this dynamic lately mirrored in my outside world by not getting what I need–the very basics. But I had forgotten the food for my soul, the very basics for my inner world’s needs–the art, the words, the movement, the mothering!

God, the Universe, my spirit helpers, brought me to these classes and gave me the coincidences. This has led me to the understanding that we can not give from an empty place. As parents we have a right to our own needs too. As healers, artists and teachers, also. We need to open our hearts again and we can only truly do that when we are fed.

(If you are needing your joy back, consider the Fairy Joy class to rediscover what feeds you. Sign-ups are happening right now.)

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Abundance on a budget

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10 Ways to feel like you’re Abundant when your cashflow isn’t flowing:

  1. Head to the library. Where else can you walk out of a place with an arm full of free books? Our library allows 50 items at one time! I’ve walked out with 10 DVDs, 10 CDs, tons of best-selling books! And don’t forget the cheapo 25 cent magazines! I recently picked up the latest VOGUE!
  2. Sign up for My Points.  Earn enough and you can win free gift cards. My husband and I recently went to Olive Garden for free! Boy, did we need that treat. Nothing like having someone refill your water, bring you food you don’t have to make, and ask you continually if everything is all right. It’s a dream to us caregiver types!
  3. Take $10 and head to the local thrift store like the Goodwill. Not only will you give to a good cause, but you can buy several outfits! My daughter and I recently went to a Fill a bag for $1 sale. We walked away with whole wardrobes and we’re talking good quality clothes.
  4. Clean your closets or your drawers. You’d be amaze how much stuff you already have and haven’t worn!
  5. Make something. Get out the art supplies and create! This shows you you can make something out of nothing! (um, in a good way)
  6. Bake from scratch. Same concept as no. 5. You can make great things (or in my case in baking, not so much.)
  7. Collect all the loose change from under the couch, your purse, the floor. Watch for the change on the ground when you go outside.
  8. Listen to all the free radio you can find. Listen to Pandora or Faerie Radio! Nothing like good new tunes to raise your mood. (Thanks to Bill who told me about Pandora).
  9. Trade with friends. I loved the day my friend Pam gave me a huge set of acrylic paints she wasn’t needing or wanting worth tons to me.
  10. And last but not least, spend some time doing what you put off as selfish or self-indulgent. Go use the paints, read the book you’ve put off reading, use that porch swing!

You will find just by doing a few things on the list, your mood expands and floats, and next thing you know abundance comes in other ways through the door. Off to paint… (from my October newsletter).

manifesting · spiritual lessons

Spirit leads and tribal belief

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I haven’t posted in my art blog. I haven’t wanted to as much. But I wrote a more “aware” post over there regarding a great book by Sonia Choquette and an exercise in following your spirit here.

I am amazed how much my body talks! After getting over the cough and throat clearing, my daughter came home with the cough the other day. Now I’m sneezing. Maybe it’s allergies, which is possible, except when I checked in I learned I was still clearing! Man, is it done yet???? I mean, I know we are growing to a new vibration, etc. etc., but I want to feel better! I felt all this, then I went to sleep. I had an amazing dream. I was with my Mom in my childhood house (hmm, childhood), and a man came to the door wanting us to vote on a poll. He had a flashing sign (there’s your sign), it said, TRIBAL BELIEFS or MAGIC.

I scanned the net for info on TRIBAL BELIEFS and read about relating to root chakra, etc. And then I read an article from a book on a man who was dying rather than rest and take care of himself. He was working himself to death for the sake of his family. Well, something in that resonate because I began to have a coughing fit. I kept coughing and dripping and I was like, Okay, I get it! I’ve been learning–slowly–how to balance taking care of myself with taking care of others/giving. I am trying to stop justifying my overconcern with working and putting out too much. My Guides just call it “striving.” I think it’s alot of stuff I adopted from my Mom, who was very accomplished, but overly concerned with acchievement. Her back would be hurting, she’d feel sick, but darnit, she’d still go to work and bring work home.

The magic part…I am witnessing a different way to do everything. What we all know is the gift of manifesting, allowing, trusting, etc. All the stuff we’ve been taught lately. But I’ve had a hard time letting go of the old way and embrace the new way. (Ha ha, much like the country!) There’s that fear, the what if’s. And that fear has been strong. I guess it is all a process.

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I am learning about real balance

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I am learning about real balance. Abundance comes in so many ways we don’t realize, and what our souls love may be very different from what we force ourselves to do.

I am diligently following my soul lately, inspite of fear of change. I find that when I don’t feed myself, I cut off the flow of abundance in all ways. Simply said, when I went off and created, read a book, followed all the things I didn’t have time for and had told myself were silly, I felt filled up! And when I felt filled, I didn’t focus on the lack or feel angry and resentful. Okay, I admit it, I have had times where I felt like I was all giving out and no taking in and then I’d feel resentful, angry, and “what about me?” came out. Now, deep down this isn’t me, so these feeling always scared me. When I got sick recently and felt invisible, ignored and not taken care of, I had to really look at the situation. Was this true? And I realized, I put my hands in other people’s. I wasn’t taking care of my own needs for so long. I was taking care of everyone but me! And I mean everyone. And I thought that was very selfless and wonderful thing. I needed to feed myself un-work-related things. (I really am such a workaholic). So, just in the last week, by filling that well, so to speak, I feel my energy reemerge. I feel my original mission come to the surface, not the person I had become because it was what others’ wanted me to be. I feel my light reappear! Praise DOG!

Here’s the quote I found from Creating Money (page 216) that really validated this learning:

“Learning to give to yourself is important in maintaining the flow of abundance. If you cannot give to yourself, there will be block in the flow, and eventually you will feel it. For instance, healers may burn themselves out if they are always giving to others but are unable to give themselves the time they need to feel nurtured and recharge their energy.”

Darn that’s good.

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How Not to Manifest

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  1. Obsess over what you don’t have. This is very important for not manifesting what you want.
  2. Freak out completely over what is missing.
  3. Begin to deteriorate emotionally and question if your Guides give a flying monkey or not if you eat, or have gas money, or what you need. Don’t trust at all. And absolutely, don’t, under any circumstances, remind yourself of times when your Guides and the Universe came through for you. This may be the time they don’t.
  4. Feel resentment because what you need isn’t coming from the sources you think it should. Resent everyone. It’s probably their fault.
  5. Don’t allow yourself to play, relax, or enjoy anything, because after all, you need to only focus on creating what you need. This is the responsible way to do things.
  6. Be extra hard on yourself for not manifesting what you need. Tell yourself you are flawed in some way or that no one cares about you.
  7. Force yourself to do things you hate, or that you should do, to get what you want.
  8. Obsess some more. Obsessing is always a good thing to show the Universe how much you really care.
  9. And finally, and this is very important, take all of this very, very seriously.
    – RONNI HALL, who has learned all of this from experience, I hate to admit.
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Manifesting speeding up

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I have been noticing that my manifesting has sped up. Where in the past, there were blocks in the way (apparently) and when I asked for certain things, those things would be long time coming. Is it possible by having such a big clearing and healing, and releasing so much I have removed blocks in that area? I am so happy! It has been as simple as thinking I needed something, perhaps money for a certain bill, and then I’d be surprised how it suddenly emerged. Before it had felt like I was working with quicksand. Has anyone else experienced this shift?