Today’s post is about getting rid of things that make you bitchy. Oh, that is just fun to write. Some things you can’t always get rid of (relatives, teenagers), but I am amazed how many things I’ve held on to because I think I SHOULD be doing this or that. I have this Capricorn mind that plans and plans and likes all my ducks sitting neatly in a row. I tell myself, everyone is doing a. so I need to do a. to get what I want. Not true. For instance, I’m not into Twitter. I just don’t get it, don’t understand, can’t follow something that has no pictures or visuals, but I love Facebook. I love teaching small groups at the college, but I really hate teaching big informal lecture halls, or being squooshed into someone’s living room with twenty-five people. I really hate receiving email marketing for new teleconferences, etc. , that tell me they have all the answers for a particular problem in a big hard sell. Yuck! Thirty minutes into the call and they are selling me something I can’t afford or need and they told me what I already knew.
So, do I follow Twitter, teach at lecture halls and do teleconferences? If I am at a low point, and others have told me I should do this to get what I need, and that there is something wrong with me if I don’t, I might, (remember, low point) and then I will probably bitch and moan on this blog. Hopefully, I will remind myself there are many ways to climb a mountain, and the ways you do it are meant for you and your path of success.
Which leads me to my Newsletter. I love writing and I enjoy writing my newsletter. I like to blog the best because I like the give and take of writing–when clients and friends write telling me how something I wrote helped them, I light up like a lightning bug. Often my newsletters are pitches for my work or classes and are meant to draw biz. Boy, is it frustrating when I send out a big mailing and there is dead silence. All my little buttons are pushed from childhood. I go through stages of grief, mainly sadness and anger. I’ve come to the conclusion–why I am I sending out a newsletter when I have this blog?
If you are interested in my new classes or services, then read this blog and check in often. My newsletter makes me bitchy.
Okay, had a recurring dream that I want to take an art class–this time an animation class–and in order to sign up, need to pass along my phone number. I go into my purse and there are so many different business cards with different phone numbers–all old. I can’t find a recent card.
To make things even weirder, Emma Lou (this is in real life, not dream world), has knocked over my pocketbook from the counter several times, throwing the business cards all over the floor. The one day she dragged the one card around on the ground.
I am feeling a restlessness and a desire for other things. It may be my soul wanting to expand, but I have noticed a slow down in flow in many areas. Readings are still happening, and the college classes did not go this time so I am teaching privately and at a rescue group. I love teaching, but I am feeling that soon I will be teaching more things, and my soul needs-wants to create more now for a living.
I’ve been reading a good book called THE INSTRUCTION which helps you find your soul type and missions. I am a CREATOR SPIRITUALIST with CARETAKER tendencies. No wonder I want to take care of all my clients! Perhaps the dream relates to what I’ve read. I need to create foremost to be happy.
So, how does it tie into the business cards dream? Or, Emma Lou’s crytic message? Hmmmm. What do you think?
The Other Side in dreams is as real as here.
We just endured our third? move in 3 years! When we sold our house in Cottonwood, we found the first place we could that would take 4 dogs, 2 birds, and 3 people. It was expensive and a bit odd. The light fixtures didn’t match the lights. There was a fireplace…buried in concrete behind a wall. The Arizona room I was so excited about was either too hot or too cold. We had a tough time when we lived in that house. We lost our Lilibeth there and I went through that huge energy shift clearing that left me physically incapacitated for awhile. So, when we were offered a new place by a friend we jumped at it. The pink house was comfy and bizarre in its own way, but very old and cramped and it had one bathroom. With a growing teenaged girl this was an ordeal. We didn’t want to go through yet another move, especially after just losing Foxy to the other side, but the lease was up and rents are way down out here, so another move we did. This new house is wonderful. It’s large, two bathrooms, modern, comfy and in a fun community neighborhood. We feel spoiled!
I am amazed that when we are at rock bottom and scared, is when I finally surrender. I’ll let go of my hands off the wheel. You see, this only happens when things look rather dire and impossible, and then everything works out beautifully. I would like to work on this behavior. Surely, I don’t need to get to this point to be better assisted. You would think! So I will learn this new way of trusting. Lesson learned? Hopefully.
I must say, it is spiritual to be cranky. And to be mad, or upset, or sad. It’s all included in the package of being human. Lucky us. The Secret, is a great book, but the problem that came with it, is many of us think we have to only think positively all the time or we attract bad stuff. That’s a huge burden to carry, and most of the time that only means repression of the yucky thoughts.
I grew up in a household where my dad, unable to deal with anything emotionally heavy, would say, “Only tell me the positive stuff.” Ouch. Where’s the support or the validation? I do not want my grown-up world to reflect this also!
You will have times in life where things just suck. It’s the up and down of life we can count on. Right now, my life is in topsy-turvy and the last month has in some ways, has sucked. Most of my best buds are going through the same thing. I do like to focus on the positive end of it; the lessons being learned. But, I also have felt FRUSTRATED, ANGRY, UPSET, SAD, REALLY PISSED, and a bunch of other not very pretty things. But, you know what? That’s good! That is a natural reaction to losing someone you love and experiencing big changes. In order to get to the other side of the tough stuff, sometimes you need to barrel right through and feel it. THEN you get to the lessons and the gifts.
My friends tell me I need to talk out my feelings and thoughts and then I come to my own answers. That usually involves expressing all the poo underneath. Neither of my friends or my husband say to me, “Oh how very un-spiritual of you, Ronni. You should only express good things.” Yes, I need to say what I want. But sometimes, you need to let out and express what you don’t want to find out what you do.
“Timeframes – Spirit World vs. Our World
My biggest frustration working with the Spirit world, is the discrepancy I have found between our time schedule and theirs. Here’s my translations/definitions:
soon — Could be a month to a year (ask for clarity with this message)
very soon — Within a month
March — Okay, whatever is going to happen will probably be in March if the animal is being this specific.
Spring – Be sure to ask if that is this Spring or next Spring, or several Springs down the road; trust me on this one”
— from Animal Mediumship AM101 class sign up here.
Today Please God…
Foxy stars in my Fairy Field Guide, and in the Fairies 101 online class excerpt here.
Ronni's Psychic Room 