I’m the guestie over at my friend, Tracie Nichol’s earthy blog. Check out the article here.
January is a great time to get your ducks in a row and start planning your new direction for 2013. If you are interested in animal communication and you think this might be your “thing”, I have only 2 spots left for mentoring. Check it out here.
Certification people! Start now with your first core class or sign up for next class to continue in the program!
And, classes start January 18th including the new and fabulous Empath Skills class which will have a new video and cool worksheets to print out! Check it out here.
In addition to my site here and my portfolio site, I wanted to create a blog for just my little videos, my new little passion. Making videos was introduced during my Full Sail experience, and I was hooked. What a great way to tell a story!
I could tell the trees’ stories.
And talk teach about how cool flower essences are, because Nature is, well, seriously cool.
I can even count birds with my dog girl.
I can even make commentaries or make movies for other people and their businesses!
Looking at 2012, I keep quite a few notebooks and art journals. I’ve been spending the day perusing them and looking back at the year. Here’s my top 10’s.
SOCIOPATHS, BEING THE SCAPEGOAT, HEAVY, OTHER PEOPLE’S FEARS, OLD LESSONS LEARNED, POOR SUPPORT CREATING CARRYING, UNDERVALUING, BAD MATCHES, HIDING, FLIGHTY, ONE SIZE DOES NOT FIT ALL, ORGANIZED RELIGION THAT HURTS, SH, MONEY SHAME.
I haven’t had time in awhile for Sketchbook Saturday, so I thought it was a good idea to post one today. I thought this card was super appropriate for the times right now. When I finishing my calendar I felt this card was a fitting one to include and summed up what I had gained or learned in 2012. We can go through some pretty awful experiences in our lives but something special survives and can’t be destroyed.
LESSON OF THE ZINNIA THAT SURVIVED THE LAWN:
This month’s lesson is about…survival and joy. Often in life we go through hardship, loss and trauma, which chips away at that delicious, child-like innocence we came in with. Years ago, my family and I planted a small garden. We bought expensive dirt and laid out the garden with care. Each plant was picked to bring joy to the yard. But what we didn’t count on was the conditions: strong Arizona heat that reached 106 degrees and killed every plant but one: the hardy Zinnia. Zinnia is the fairy joy flower. Even in the toughest conditions and experiences, there’s a precious part of us that doesn’t die. Hint: it’s the part that still knows how to giggle.
A little about the artwork:
I wanted the zinnia to stand out and to be very stylized to show its beauty and simplicity. I love the art crayons which gave the wonderful textures in the background.
ORDER: This card/art is in my 2013 Healing Fairy Alphabet calendar available over at Lulu. You can order yours here.
I had to get off Facebook for awhile…After the tragedy of the elementary school shooting, I couldn’t even bear to feel. But it was the nonsense that followed that I couldn’t let into my system anymore.
I’m going through a disillusionment period, which I think most of us are. Spiritual leaders I used to admire I am looking at with a new eye. Everyone is fighting over politics, issues and now gun control. Many of my own buttons and wounds were pushed because I do understand very much how someone can come into your life with untreated mental illness and destroy everything, so I am sure, I am feeling that backlash. And all the 2012 channelings and spiritual teachers talking of how on the 21st it will be a new dawn and we will be enlightened, etc., started to really piss me off with its lack of real information. It felt like it was all pulling back the curtains and revealing the wizard pulling a bunch of strings.
Is the darkness getting darker and fighting because we are bringing in so much light? Ask anyone who has been through trauma in their life and they will tell you they’ve seen darkness and it’s been around a long, long time. 9/11 happened quite a long time ago and destroyed many people’s lives. When I really thought about it, I saw a clearer picture. What if instead, many of us are waking up? That means we are getting it, seeing it, and instead mindlessly accepting all this madness we are speaking up and speaking out. And we were the silent few, so lots of folks want us to be silent again.
One of my favorite movies is Pleasantville. It’s about a fictional television town that is exposed to real people and starts to wake up. They are all in black and white and they become “in color.” That’s us. There’s always been corrupt politicians, democrat vs. republican fighting, traditional vs. non-traditional thinking and values, and evil vs. good. It’s the yin and the yang. If we wanted all good we would have stayed with God in heaven where it was all flowers and light and endless cupcakes. We miss that terribly. But we agreed to come down here to earth to experience that dichotomy. Call it the ego or the personality, but it’s a big part of being human and we need to accept that. When you are in a body it comes with the territory. It goes along with having to pee and eat. We wanted to learn and boy, are we ever. Probably a little more than we intended, so we are feeling rather uncomfortable.
So, no, the darkness isn’t getting darker, we’re just exposing it and bringing it out from under the table. We’re talking about it. We’re trying to heal it. We’re trying to bring in more balance. I like the idea that bringing in more light is about bringing in more knowledge and awareness. We’re being educated. And the spiritual leaders? They are trying to define it: like the rest of us, most are just trying to find an explanation for the madness and for things that don’t make any sense at all in this crazy earth plane.
*And empaths, limit your news exposure. You don’t need to tune in and carry the pain of the families in the tragedy. It’s too much for even one person to bear.
*Check out the book WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE by Harold Kushner
I’ve had my phone number now for several years. So when I started to receive calls from several health insurance companies, a car dealership and a job service asking for Mr. Barnes, I was rather confused. Turns out the man used my number on several online forms. Perhaps, he’s dyslexic and switches numbers around and his number is close to mine. Maybe he’s out to get me. Or, many, many moons ago my phone number was his and he still uses it because he doesn’t want anyone to know his new number. Any way you slice it, these kind of calls were annoying to put it mildly.
Today I graduate from Full Sail’s Graduate Certificate program in EMDT and I couldn’t be more proud. To celebrate, I have changed my phone number. I will be very selective who I share that number with this time around. No mentioning online or handing out business cards. If folks want to find me, they can find me right here and use my email. I’m online all the time anyways.
Good bye Mr. Barnes. I hope one day you find that health insurance you seem to seek. You have taught me assertiveness as I told off callers. You taught me patience as calls sporadically came in whenever you decided to have fun filling out forms online. You taught me tolerance for irritations and interruptions. You might have even give me an outlet to let off steam. I have learned my lessons. Your work is done here.
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