I’m down with a nasty bug so I have lots of time to reflect, which isn’t always a good thing. Sometimes when I am in a bad state I tend to grab for what isn’t good for me, like junk food or bad movies.
Long ago, when my family was in one piece, we’d watch the show Angel together. Not so much feeling nostalgic last night, but without my Netflix selection, I grabbed for the dvd’s I had.
I was surprised by my first thought. How the hell did I watch this show? Hell, being the accurate word. There was enormous amount of violence, darkness, weird stuff. All of which I am sure is good television watching, but I felt it. I mean, really felt it. My sensitivity has so increased, or maybe I was so numb in my life to the negative at the time that this was nothing. After one episode I felt intense fear in life where there should be none. As an empath, I was negatively influenced.
On hindsight, I think I grabbed for that show to purge some of that fear and leftover bad stuff, and that is a way to use a more controlled and thought-out empathy. The whole episode was about things you trusted looking one way but were completely different inside. (Cordy was the evil Master but no one knew, and Angel was the evil Angeles). Later that night I did have one “hell” of a nightmare that cleared all that out.
It’s having that awareness–how is the show you are watching affecting your sensitivity? When you are attracted to a show what are you purging, dealing with, that needs to come out? The key is what are you resonating with or turned off by? What really hits you?
I think today I will reach out to my feel-good Racing Stripes movie or The Rookie to counteract last night’s purge, and I will be much more aware of what I am drawn to in my selections. There’s guidance there.
A little aside to this post: turns out the dream I had after watching the show was a premonition of information. It was a warning about disturbing news I received the next day.
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