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new thinking · spiritual lessons

Know Yourself

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What I am learning…instead of lamenting on how I am and who I am, I need to embrace it. My soul is letting me know what I need to make me happy and when I explain away or tell myself my feelings aren’t spiritual, I miss out on important clues. What do I mean exactly?

1. I love variety and get bored easily, that is why I love design assignments, love creating a class, learning new things. When I am in a position of doing the same thing over and over, of course I’m unhappy. The new spiritual ideas floating around say you need to “fix” that unspiritual thought, but that’s untrue! Here’s a valuable clue to what makes me tick. I need to work with this, not paddle upstream by changing me. ( I love the True Colors system. When I read about it I found out that most Green’s feel that way).

2. I need alone time to touch base with myself and recharge. After reading the Introvert Advantage, I know that this is a truth for most folks like myself. It’s documented truth. If I try to force myself to be more social all the time like the rest of the world, I’m going to be one bitchy, nasty girl. My daughter is the opposite. She needs to be around people most of the time. She’s gotten alot more balanced and can now spend lots of time in her room. For a few years there I tried to accommodate her and be “out” more than “in”. It didn’t work. I overloaded most the time.

Without alone time I have no idea how I really feel. Then it’s not uncommon for me to say things like, “I didn’t even know I was angry.”

3.  A big clue you aren’t taking the time to hear yourself is when you are screaming at the Universe, “Don’t you hear me!”, when you don’t feel your needs are being heard. This was big a realization for me. Why should the Universe listen to you when you don’t?

Today, listen to yourself. Accept the negative feelings! Let it out! Don’t rewrite them to sound positive or to be politically correct or so you only attract the positive. The positive is underneath all that gunk that needs to come out first. These are clues to what you need, people. I write this for myself as a reminder, as well as, to share with you.

spiritual lessons

Wise will

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I am learning the difference between wise will connected to my higher self and my lower will connected to my little brain, according to the great book Spiritual Growth by Sanaya Roman, a classic. The other day I stopped at a local healer’s place and tried out a fabulous essential oil, Cardamom. With just a little rub, I felt grounded and calm. That’s the great thing about being a sensitive, a little goes a long way! The healer, Suzanne, noticed I started coughing. She said that meant my feeling area was not aligned with my head. Ain’t that the truth. I’ve been working on head-only decisions, and have lately been learning how to follow my intuition or heart/feelings, according to Sanaya, my wise will. The wise will will lead you through your feelings and what you WANT to do. Today I feel like painting canvases and making essences. My brain is telling me to go fuss on the website and worry. Which do you think I will listen to?

Tomorrow I hope to write about the odd vision I had. There is always so much to write about and share!

dreams · Guardian Angels

What do you want?

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I think we are all being asked what do we want and what do we need to let go of. Everything is becoming unbearingly obvious what needs to go so there’s no question. The lesson I am learning is to start following my feelings. Sounds easy enough, if I was good at that task. I woke up from a dream visit with my helpers, remembering the message. In the dream, I was at a doctor’s office. He was giving me my credit scores in feeling. I had a 530 and a 620 in how happy I felt. Way below the national average, I was told. It was a funny dream because lately I’ve been more focused on credit scores than on my own happiness. Sometimes logical mind tells you all the reasons you “should” do something or another, but forgets to include if that something will make you happy. I think it is even more ridiculous that most of us forgot to ask ourselves if we ARE happy as if it mattered!

So let me take the time out right now before I am awake and logical to say that THIS is what makes me happy. I love writing. Putting together my blogs. I love making books/projects–illustrating, writing, organizing and designing them. And I love teaching what I learned through this form and hearing that I helped or inspired someone. There. It’s out. I said what my heart wanted to say.