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empaths · healing · Intuition · new thinking · spiritual lessons

Psychic vs. scientist

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scientistI am slowly learning:

  • I question myself when around someone who is more of a “scientist” and is unbelieving. One of Foxy’s vets looks at me like I am crazy when I tell her what Foxy is feeling or what I “get”. She took xrays of Foxy’s back and showed places where she had problems. She said, “She may or may not have any pain.” I said, “Yes, she has pain. I told you that. Several times. In those exact places.” She just ignored me. The woman only looks at the numbers and doesn’t seem to have the intuition or feeling to see what is happening. Being an empathic/intuitive person, I can’t even understand this. I was furious she would question my abilities or expertise of ten years when I don’t hers. It’s out and out disrespectful! And worse, around that energy,  I begin to question myself.
  • Perhaps, she is mirroring my own doubts. My Guides had given me advice about Foxy’s health I questioned because I didn’t see results in front of me. I had to act on blind faith and I haven’t been able to do that. Perhaps I too, am the scientist.
  • Trusting even though situations may look bad or hopeless: I remember when we were selling our house a few years back when the market just started to go downhill. At the time, I was getting advice from our departed dog of all things. Talk about faith. But, I wholeheartedly trusted  Lucy and I felt her spirit, and heard her. Lucy said we’d find that buyer and said when- March. There was a bit of a snag. A realtor came in March bringing an interested client and the client fell through–couldn’t get financing! We were then approached by a shady couple to buy our house cheaply. Was this the buyer? This couple felt so horrible, I had a migraine after talking to them. We decided to go with faith, said no, and decided to wait it out. Glad we did. Only two days later, that nice realtor came by again with our buyer. That buyer who picked out our house from a huge list of houses unseen and said, “That one.” What if I hadn’t trusted? I’d have missed the miracle.
  • We do need that balance: science balanced with intuition. If I treated Foxy for her kidneys with just faith, I don’t know if I’d see results. We still need the medications for support and the fluids. There is a role for each. I know if I had bacterial pneumonia I sure as hell would want some antibiotics and not just hands-on-healing to wipe it out.  I’d need both. Getting information that is happening is needed from the animals and Guides and then the vet/doctor can come in and do support. We can use natural support–plants, etc., but we still need that. I guess, it’s all balance.
  • We are not just test results. You need the full story on all levels what is occuring to a person or animal. Too unbalanced a view doesn’t give the whole picture.
Intuition · spiritual lessons

Streamlining and the common thread

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Yesterday, I bought a new purse. It’s cute and little, streamlined, and well, my other one broke. I picked up my purse and the strap flipped into my face, loose. Then my sunglasses broke two minutes later. Time to streamline and regroup in life too, I thought. So, now my blog has this new funky pink yummy look. Cool. It’s also organized and straightforward. Then this morning it was off to make changes on my website–add new classes, offer readings specials, and add a new fancy contact form. All streamlining again. Time to really focus in. I like this.

I’ve been too scattered. It has seemed if one thing was slow, I’d add another venue. In panic in slow times, I’d offer more venues to compensate, and be even more inundated. More scattered. Then, worse, I’d tell myself all that I did wasn’t enough! I needed to try harder, do more! It’s hard for creative, sensitive people. We are interested in so much. We get tons of ideas. But what I finally realized, through exploring and streamlining, is I always have this one common thread in whatever I do: sharing what I’ve learned in a creative way to help/teach others. Whether I am making essences, online fairy classes, or offering a workshop or book.

What in your life needs to bear down to its basic form? What is your basic thread? Be honest. What is the common love or purpose in your career that comes up over and over? Have fun exploring. And, by the way, it’s more than enough. 🙂

Guardian Angels · spiritual lessons

The Car Miracle

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I had no idea how I was going to pay for my car repairs. I didn’t know the “how’s”, but I was beginning to understand the “why’s.” All I knew was that I needed a fixed car to drive or I was dead in the water. Some guidance came through, or perhaps ideas–my own mind grasping at how things should look. None of that played out.

The first miracle was when I broke down I was befriended by Jim, who works at the Coop store I ran to, that I have friends at. He sat with me most of the day, waiting for the tow, and recommended Miles at Frank’s Automotive. My car, affectionately called Uncle Peeby Jeeby, was towed to that shop at 6pm Friday.  I told my Dad the dilemma who offered to help with repairs number one (Miracle #2). Woo! Big relief and great assistance.

Now, how would I get Uncle to the body shop to repair his boo-boos from being hit and run while parked in the parking lot waiting for the tow (I kid you not). Miles, offered to drive Uncle to the next destination if I needed it, I’d need to call him later.

My insurance company had paid for a car rental, a very cute and fun convertible pt cruiser (miracle #3). I had just recently remarked I’d love a convertible. And, very cool, I had full coverage so rentals were covered.

My last hurdle was how to pay the $500 deductible I didn’t have for the body shop. The insurance was going to issue a check for the repairs sans that money. I just had to be honest. I called the body shop to arrange my car to get there, and sure enough, Miles had already drove it over. This is where it gets really good….I told Patti over at the body shop my dilemma. At first, she said, Could I pay the $500 in payments? I told her honestly, if I had that extra money I’d pay for Foxy’s dental (our red dog), who desperately needed it. Well, turns out Patti at Downtown Paint and Body is a dog person. Not only a dog person, but a BEAGLE person. Now for those of you who know me and my family and know my artwork, you know we are huge BEAGLE people, especially from being a beagle parents to Lilibeth and Jake for many years, and I grew up with a beagle Andyboy. So, we then talked beagles for awhile and beagle rescues and next thing you know, Patti waived the deductible!

I want to thank all my Angels and Guides and the hearts of all these people who were knee-deep in helping me learn how to trust the goodness of others. For a while there, I had even said, I trust my Guides & Angels, but people sure let you down. I had had a few experiences in the past few years that brought this home. As if the Universe would have no part of that nonsense, this drama played out. To be without a car, was the ultimate in surrender for me, and the folks along the way were each angels in their own right. Thank you for restoring my faith.

spiritual lessons

Angels are nearby…

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During trying times our Angels and helpers are always nearby. When we are feeling the lowest and the worst, doesn’t it feel like they’ve gone on vacation??? But what I’ve noticed is that when I had some moments of calm, and felt up, my Angels could reach me for messages.

Yesterday I picked up the rental car. I was beyond excited when I saw if was a PTcruiser convertible! I’ve been worrying about my sick car, but just for now I was going to enjoy this convertible. I’ve never driven one. As I rode around town, with the sun streaming and my hair blowing, I felt a weird kind of bliss. Wasn’t I being disloyal to my misery? No. Darn it, I was going to enjoy this moment where I felt great and and I was enjoying the ride. I knew this was the message. To enjoy right now. I’m not usually good at this. I spend most of my life planning ahead. I knew that trust lied in that very moment.

I turned on the radio to hear my signature song, “Don’t stop believing, hold on to that feeling.” My Angel song. “Is that you Angels?” I asked. Sure enough, walking into the grocery store I heard the song playing “Angel” by Sarah McLachlan.

I think in that moment, with my heart open again and I was feeling more up, they could reach me.

spiritual lessons

Can you trust when things are looking bad?

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That’s the real test, I think. Time and again, I’ve experienced this test. One day I will get it. I chose an animal card yesterday: Maintain Control and Beliefs. It’s hard sometimes. Yes, I’ve read the SECRET. I’ve worked the manifesting books, but we can’t always see how things will lead. It isn’t always just me trying to manifest but all of us working together pulling many strings. How do I know what small act that I was guided to do or something I said during this experience can lead to someone else’s good.

The other night, in the middle of the car fiasco-worrying state I was in, we watched a slow movie called MIDNIGHT CLEAR. The movie had some religious undertones I did not resonate with, so I let that go. But the message was nice: it was the small acts or choices that the players made that left lasting impressions. So, I am waiting for the big picture surrounding my car. I am expecting my needs will be met even in a situation that looks hopeless (it’s worked before for me and my family), and I am expecting that who I have met along the way will lead to some good. And hey, I am only human. Beyond the spiritual perspective, I really, really want to be able to pay to fix my car. Just more trusting.

spiritual lessons

Car symbolism

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I’ve been dreaming about designing again. Maybe pulled into new directions? Anyhow, still dead in the water right now. So, I looked up these great sites regarding car symbolism. (Ha! Even when I am bottoming out, I still want to share information and teach. Will this madness ever end?)

Great definitions on types of car dreams, from crashes to who is driving the car:

http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art12197.asp

Another blog touches upon this subject. I conclude that my car (or things in my life) need to be repaired. I am waiting to see if it will be to hard or out my reach to do so!

http://thedreamwell.wordpress.com/2008/08/18/dream-symbols-driving-the-car/

The repair theme is so true! Seems everything needs some work and new life to it.

spiritual lessons

Universal Wake-up calls

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I blew a gasket. No, literally. In the middle of courthouse square in Prescott. It was actually the gasket top cover which shattered and covered the street, and then I couldn’t steer. The rest of the day was filled with angels in people form helping me. I was lucky that I was in the middle of civilization and so close to friends.

If I analyze this experience as a dream, it would be telling. I had hit a point of frustration–having that “I give up!” moment before this happens. Now I await to see what the damage is and how to come up with the money. All I do know from this, is I need to make some serious changes in the area of receiving. Maybe some downsizing. Oh, and I need to get that car fixed, pronto.

new thinking · spiritual lessons

Pulling away old beliefs; self esteem

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I love how the Universe throws in your face what you need to work on when you need to work on it. Many times, the stuff coming up is the stuff that is finally ready to leave. In the past few weeks, my past arrived at my front door–all the old stuff that brought with it old messages that when I tell myself these things I feel like poo. Had it become so automatic in me to talk to myself like that?

Our relatives visited and with them came very old roles I no longer fit into, as well as, old familiar insecurities and bad feelings from long ago. Then there were the old friends which brought back very old roles & a teenage persona, and I realized how different a person I was now. But why were the feelings that came up as raw as if I were back in those school days? Because when the stuff is leaving it IS in your face. It’s time for it to leave! All this old stuff I realized, was a great deal of other people’s stuff that I took personally. As an empath, I often do that. I get lost in the goop and forget to get out.

But that visit and the old friends & the old stuff brought me grown-up realizations which is a good thing. There were old beliefs. One big one yesterday I’d like to share. My folks believed (and still do) that your worth is based on how things look. So, whenever my life or I didn’t measure up, or wasn’t as good as, or didn’t appear big or exciting enough, I wasn’t worth while. This belief was so buried down I had no idea I even thought it! (I actually had an old boyfriend in college look at me and tell me I wasn’t glamorous enough! That same belief coming up to clear.) And you know what? Here, all along, it wasn’t my belief to begin with!

Gradually I am realizing my life, for me, is about how I feel. Am I happy? Does what I do make me feel good? Help others? Do I feel good? My soul and who I am is much more than how I appear, as for everyone of you.

What beliefs have come up for you lately that are ready to vamoose? I’ll give you a clue which ones are the old ones, any belief that starts out by saying, “You should be _____ (fill in the blank), to be acceptable.” Let it go…

manifesting · spiritual lessons

Abundance on a budget

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10 Ways to feel like you’re Abundant when your cashflow isn’t flowing:

  1. Head to the library. Where else can you walk out of a place with an arm full of free books? Our library allows 50 items at one time! I’ve walked out with 10 DVDs, 10 CDs, tons of best-selling books! And don’t forget the cheapo 25 cent magazines! I recently picked up the latest VOGUE!
  2. Sign up for My Points.  Earn enough and you can win free gift cards. My husband and I recently went to Olive Garden for free! Boy, did we need that treat. Nothing like having someone refill your water, bring you food you don’t have to make, and ask you continually if everything is all right. It’s a dream to us caregiver types!
  3. Take $10 and head to the local thrift store like the Goodwill. Not only will you give to a good cause, but you can buy several outfits! My daughter and I recently went to a Fill a bag for $1 sale. We walked away with whole wardrobes and we’re talking good quality clothes.
  4. Clean your closets or your drawers. You’d be amaze how much stuff you already have and haven’t worn!
  5. Make something. Get out the art supplies and create! This shows you you can make something out of nothing! (um, in a good way)
  6. Bake from scratch. Same concept as no. 5. You can make great things (or in my case in baking, not so much.)
  7. Collect all the loose change from under the couch, your purse, the floor. Watch for the change on the ground when you go outside.
  8. Listen to all the free radio you can find. Listen to Pandora or Faerie Radio! Nothing like good new tunes to raise your mood. (Thanks to Bill who told me about Pandora).
  9. Trade with friends. I loved the day my friend Pam gave me a huge set of acrylic paints she wasn’t needing or wanting worth tons to me.
  10. And last but not least, spend some time doing what you put off as selfish or self-indulgent. Go use the paints, read the book you’ve put off reading, use that porch swing!

You will find just by doing a few things on the list, your mood expands and floats, and next thing you know abundance comes in other ways through the door. Off to paint… (from my October newsletter).

spiritual lessons

Good vs. bad energy & going deeper

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I was going to write about one thing this morning, and realized the lesson I was learning was very different. Today I felt the difference between receiving good energy and bad energy. Good energy-wise–I received my daily message from Tut.com. I felt uplifted, powerful and excited to move on=good energy. I also received a very lovely blog review recognizing my blog as helpful=another warm, good fuzzy feeling. On the other hand, for the first time-I should feel flattered my blog is gaining such popularity-a very weird, critical and not very helpful blog comment. I questioned myself, felt yukky, and wanted to go into bad OCD-like behaviors=bad energy. Sometimes criticism is a good thing if it makes your work or services better. Good criticism might feel a little ouchy, but you know it is true. Bad criticism just doesn’t feel good. It isn’t helpful.

I would have stayed at the lesson right there, but BAM. I was reminded to go deeper. This same criticism was what I tell myself often–that if something isn’t working how I’d like it, I must not be doing it “right.” So, I need to excessively obsess over things and work harder until they are “right.” It was as if this person came along to show me this! This was old stuff and old patterns that didn’t make sense anymore. The truth for me I have found, is those who are right for your work, your services or business, “get” what you do right away. They already think it is right in every way, because it is meant for them. Haven’t you noticed this? The others will weed themselves out by asking for what you can’t give, wanting you to compromise more, and will want what you offer to be much different than what it is. I suppose this applies to relationships and life also. What do you think?