How have you survived the Solstice? Fun energy, huh? My life experienced such a major shift that growth has been seen on all levels. What’s does this mean? Lots of lessons learned, of course, which I’d like to share with my clients and friends.
The big thing I learned is that some of our gifts were born from childhood survival. Mine? Taking care of everyone else’s emotions, being ultra-aware of their needs and feelings from a place of deep fear and necessity, and understanding the big picture of their problems to fix them. Childhood made me into an empath. But what if those gifts are coming from an empty place? A place disconnected from your soul?
Some of our gifts come from a deeper place–from joy and who we truly are at the core. I think when I create, get lost in an art and writing project, it is from my six-year-old self–the part of me that is closest to my soul, way before my survival wounds began. (The child knows at my core I am more than enough as is.) The six-year-old loved to write plays about animals, usually imparting some message, draw and design the animal characters, and made puppets to go with the play to tell the story. At the core of my being, telling the story that teaches is what is most important.
Several times in the past few months during crisis with our daughter, gifted folks told me I should be a therapist. I had such insight. I could figure things out. I could see the deeper levels. But again, gifts created out of necessity.
Perhaps, when I talk to the animals, I am simply relaying their stories and what is important to them. When I veer into trying to fix, taking on the emotions of my clients, finding their answers, I am off course and venturing into the land of my broken places. I know when this happens when I become drained or unusually depressed. I’ve lost my soul to do what I am good at, but what does not feed me inside. I can use my empathic abilities when I teach or coach, when I create to help others, and then I am back home again.
Can you relate? What part of you is from the broken place? What part is from the core of your being? What are you doing?
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