I read in Karen’s What’s Up on Planet Earth that what we are all experiencing is the darkness right now. As we go up the ladder, higher and higher, we are bound to pass the darkness leaving all around us. Now, sometimes the negativity IS in us, wanting to leave. I, and my loved ones and friends, are feeling all of this strongly. We are all dealing with our core, deep issues. You know, the ones that push that little button that throws you back to when you were a little child. The uglies! It’s time to do some house-cleaning and clean up and get rid of that core belief that you learned that doesn’t even to begin to reflect who you are inside! Yes, we weren’t really seen for the bright stars that we were. How could we be? We were raised by folks who didn’t see or were taught to see their own shining light. We can heal this for them too. Bring that nasty belief out of the woodwork now. Unfold it and lay it out on the bed before you. Yes, it’s nasty. Yes, it hurts, but it isn’t real. It’s not a truth. And now, it’s out in the open, lying right in front of you, so it can’t hide anymore.
Feel that pain and break away from the mask you once worn that tried to hide you from this false truth, whether the mask showed up as an addiction, a stress reliever, or a compulsive obsession. Mine is..hopefully, was, work. I thought (deep down inside) that what I accomplish is ME. What I DO to please others is ME. Now I am experiencing a mini-death to my mask-self. Mask-self isn’t working. It’s not fixing the belief or making it go away. All that is left is ME. And then I have to feel the pain that I felt before I made this mask-self so I would be “Okay.” Big frickin’ OUCH. But, you know what? It wasn’t ME and will never be ME. And ME is enough. And anyone who thinks or feels ME isn’t enough, doesn’t deserve to be in my new little universe.
Gut honesty. Gut vulnerability. I showed you mine, what’s yours?

hey ronni! thanks for posting this! I so needed to read it. now I know why I have been down so much lately. here’s hoping it will pass soon!
xxxox
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Claudine! You closet sensitive. π I am so glad my own realization helped. It’s just that yucky core stuff.
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